Stephen David Miller

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Best Films of 2024: Oscars Edition

Cut to the chase: Want to see this year’s actual list? Head over to Decoding Everything.

Previous write-ups: Check out the last decade of end-of-year lists to get a sense of our similarities and differences.

Podcast: You can listen to my straightforward Top 10 list on The Spoiler Warning.

Introduction

I have a tradition of tallying my favorite films of the year and turning them into an essay for my blog. But for the last few years, I’ve been honored to contribute that essay instead to David Chen’s Decoding Everything newsletter. If you haven’t already, you should read it first: It’s a significantly more polished (and complete) encapsulation of my thoughts about the year in cinema.

10 Cinematic Pairings That Captured The Mood Of 2024 by David Chen

Stephen David Miller unpacks the year via twenty interconnected films.

Read on Substack

Still, for the sake of continuity, I always like to post a little something extra for readers of my blog and/or this Substack. Last year, that came in the form of an Appendix. This year, I thought I’d shift gears and talk about tomorrow’s Academy Awards—and, in the process, give one last “hurrah” to the many films I loved.

For each category, I’ll share three opinions: which nominee will win, which should win, and what alternatives should have been nominated in their place. Because I think it’s only fair to judge categories I have some personal experience with, I’m going to omit a few:

  • Animated Short Film, Documentary Short Film, and Live Action Short Film. I didn’t manage to catch any shorts this year, so for those of you making a prediction bracket of your own, I suggest you give it a Google!
  • Documentary Feature. I only caught up with one of the nominees, No Other Land. It’s a phenomenal doc, and I’m personally rooting for it to win! But I can’t honestly judge it against a slate I haven’t seen.
  • Music (Original Song). I’ve seen two of the four films nominated, and in the case of Emilia Pérez, I forgot the songs roughly 30 seconds after they stopped playing. On the one hand, it would only take me ~15 minutes on Spotify to rectify this problem and be a completist. On the other: This category is garbage and I don’t care who wins.

OK, now on to the awards!

Animated Feature Film

  • Flow
  • Inside Out 2
  • Memoir of a Snail
  • Wallace & Gromit: Vengeance Most Fowl
  • The Wild Robot

What will win? If you’d asked me to predict this category a few months ago, a low budget Latvian film with zero dialogue, little exposition, and an intentionally stripped-down aesthetic wouldn’t have been high on my list of contenders. But awards voting bodies continue to surprise me this year, and by all indications, Flow is going to take home the prize.

What should win? In terms of quality, it’s a tie for me between Memoir of a Snail and Flow. Both are excellent. But for its sheer audacity (and what this win means for the category moving forward), I’ve got to give an edge to Flow.

What should have been nominated instead? This was a fairly weak year for animated features. Setting aside Robot Dreams (which was already nominated last year), the only three I loved (Flow, Memoir of a Snail, The Wild Robot) are already represented in this category. No notes!

International Feature Film

  • Emilia Pérez
  • Flow
  • The Girl With The Needle
  • I’m Still Here
  • The Seed of the Sacred Fig

What will win? If not for the train wreck of negative publicity, Emilia probably would have had this in the bag. But I think even the stubborn, Bohemian Rhapsody and Green Book-adoring factions of the Academy know a lost cause when they’ve seen one. Whereas I’m Still Here continues to have a groundswell of support. It catapulted seemingly overnight from being a film many American critics hadn’t seen, to being a serious contender in multiple categories. It also happens to be excellent, and has no serious detractors to my knowledge. I think this is Walter Salles’ award to lose.

What should win? I think Flow, The Girl With The Needle, and I’m Still Here would all be worthy wins. But The Seed of the Sacred Fig is my personal favorite, both as a standalone work of art and as a potent political statement. Mohammad Rasoulof and his cast fled Iran in secret to attend the Cannes premiere, and cheering for them as they entered the Palais remains one of my most moving moments of 2024.

What should have been nominated instead? Payal Kapadia’s All We Imagine As Light was one of my favorites of the year, and it’s a shame India didn’t submit it for consideration. Likewise for Poland and Green Border, a powerful work of docu-fiction which couldn’t be more timely given current anti-refugee sentiments and the recent change of tune regarding the Russo-Ukrainian war. Sub out Emilia Pérez (a movie I didn’t hate but certainly don’t think belongs in serious contention: You can listen to my scatterbrained thoughts out of Cannes) and The Girl With The Needle (a powerful, brooding arthouse drama which I liked just a tad less than the others).

Visual Effects

  • Alien: Romulus
  • Better Man
  • Dune: Part Two
  • Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes
  • Wicked

What will win? I haven’t been following any of the buzz when it comes to these technical categories, so take all of these predictions with a grain of salt: I don’t know anything you don’t know. But I’d wager this is a dead tie between Dune: Part Two and Wicked. Going to give the edge to Dune: Part Two as a consolation prize for not winning much else.

What should win? I haven’t seen Better Man, but I have seen the other four, and think Dune: Part Two is the most deserving among them…with Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes just a smidge behind it. (The Robbie Williams biopic looks great, for what it’s worth, but it’s hard to imagine anyone out-CG-aping that franchise.)

What should have been nominated instead? It’s outrageous to me that the best action spectacle of the year, Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga, isn’t getting a single awards nod. Drop Alien: Romulus and give something to George Miller’s epic.

Sound

  • A Complete Unknown
  • Dune: Part Two
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Wicked
  • The Wild Robot

What will win? Same disclaimer as above regarding technical categories. I imagine Dune: Part Two has a solid shot here, and can also see a strong argument for A Complete Unknown given how vital diegetic music is to its success. But I think Wicked takes this as a last minute sub for Emilia Pérez.

What should win? The Wild Robot is an inspired nomination for this category. It’s less flashy in its use of sound than the other picks, but it’s the film whose sound design I find most personally memorable.

What should have been nominated instead? Again, Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga should be sweeping these technical awards. Drop Emilia Pérez to make room for it.

Costume Design

  • A Complete Unknown
  • Conclave
  • Gladiator II
  • Nosferatu
  • Wicked

What will win? I wouldn’t be at all surprised if Wicked took the prize, and it would be a deserving victory. But I suspect the same voting bloc that swoons for Elizabethan period pieces and royal regalia will go all in on Vatican chic. I’m calling this for Conclave.

What should win? There are few categories I feel less opinionated about than Costume Design. But I found Nosferatu’s period aesthetic very striking, and a big part of that comes down to costuming.

What should have been nominated instead? I can’t say I know precisely where costumes end and makeup begins, but I Saw The TV Glow nails both in its eerie recreation of the 90s Nickelodeon look and feel. I’m as enchanted by Greenwich Village as anyone, but for the sake of variety, I’d let Mr. Melancholy and his minions bump out A Complete Unknown.

Makeup and Hairstyling

  • A Different Man
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Nosferatu
  • The Substance
  • Wicked

What will win? It’s hard to imagine the Academy resisting the charms of Wicked. She’s green, for Pete’s sake! And it’s a metaphor for racism and other stuff, probably!

What should win? This is a stacked category, and there’s a decent argument for every nominee: Even Emilia Pérez, the punching bag of this year’s awards season, uses makeup and hairstyling in a way that is crucial to the story. But for me, it comes down to the two body horror flicks. While The Substance was the better film in my opinion, A Different Man is the one which lives or dies by its precise use of makeup. It nails it.

What should have been nominated instead? Even though I defend Emilia Pérez in this category, its inclusion is inextricably linked to its clumsy, ultra-binary handling of trans identity. Why settle for clumsy, when I can nominate a far better film about the trans experience which happens to have incredible hair and makeup? Give its spot to I Saw The TV Glow instead.

Production Design

  • The Brutalist
  • Conclave
  • Dune: Part Two
  • Nosferatu
  • Wicked

What will win? None of these nominees would surprise me with a win, but I think Wicked is going to take it given the sheer scale of its production.

What should win? All five films impressed me with their production design (especially Nosferatu), but only one pulled it off on a shoestring budget. The Brutalist is the most deserving of the bunch, and doubly so when considering the constraints they managed it under.

What should have been nominated instead? I’m going to sound like a broken record, but I adored the look and feel of I Saw The TV Glow. It’s hard to cut anything in this category, but I’d lose Conclave as a matter of personal preference. It does an admirable job of recreating the Vatican; I’m just not as thrilled by it.

Music (Original Score)

  • The Brutalist
  • Conclave
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Wicked
  • The Wild Robot

What will win? Normally I’d be inclined to bet on Wicked here, but I suspect the Emilia Pérez stragglers will split the musical vote. So instead I’m going with Volker Bertelmann’s excellent score for Conclave.

What should win? Bertelmann’s work on Conclave is great, as is Daniel Blumberg’s for The Brutalist. But by my memory, Kris Bowers’ score for The Wild Robot blows the competition out of the water.

What should have been nominated instead? The total lock out of Challengers from this year’s awards ceremony is bizarre, and nowhere is it more glaring than in the Original Score category. Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross not only should have been nominated; they should have won. Other highlights were All We Imagine As Light (particular Topshe’s song which closes the film, though I’m unsure where “score” ends and “soundtrack” begins when it comes to original compositions) and Alex Somers & Scott Alario’s ephemeral Nickel Boys score. Lose Wicked, Emilia Pérez, and (gun to my head) Conclave to make room for these.

Film Editing

  • Anora
  • The Brutalist
  • Conclave
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Wicked

What will win? Judging by its awards season momentum, I think this is Anora’s to lose.

What should win? I’ve gotta go with the consensus here: Sean Baker’s linear editing process is vital to the momentum of his films, and he knocked it out of the park with Anora.

What should have been nominated instead? Count this among the multiple categories which Nickel Boys ought to have won by a landslide: Nicholas Monsour’s elliptical, rhythmic editing is crucial to the film’s artistic success. Also throw in Challengers for those heart-pumping tennis sequences. No hard feelings, Emilia Pérez and Wicked.

Cinematography

  • The Brutalist
  • Dune: Part Two
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Maria
  • Nosferatu

What will win? Voters will be captivated by the way Greig Fraser managed to turn Dune: Part Two into Lawrence of Arabia, but ultimately I think they’ll give this to Lol Crawley for The Brutalist. The ingenuity of filming in VistaVision is sure to win over film nerds everywhere, and the end product looks like a (couple hundred) million bucks.

What should win? Count me among the hypothetical nerds. Of these options, The Brutalist feels most deserving.

What should have been nominated instead? It’s a travesty that Nickel Boys wasn’t nominated for the one category it seemed like an obvious lock to win. Jomo Fray’s first-person filming technique is every bit as clever as Crawley’s bag of tricks, and carries far more emotional weight: This movie is a miracle, and it lives or dies by its cinematography. I can’t rightly drop Maria because I haven’t seen it, so here again I’ll settle for kicking out Emilia Pérez.

Writing (Original Screenplay)

  • Anora
  • The Brutalist
  • A Real Pain
  • September 5
  • The Substance

What will win? Screenplay awards tend to function as a consolation prize for smaller films. Normally, a Sean Baker indie or offbeat Brady Corbet epic would seem like perfect candidates. But this is a strange year, and Anora and The Brutalist are anything but underdogs. Instead, I think the Academy will award Jesse Eisenberg for A Real Pain.

What should win? If my prediction pans out, the Academy will have made the right choice. A Real Pain flows like a masterful short story; it’s tight, clever, and deserving of the win.

What should have been nominated instead? The Substance was one of my favorite films of the year, but I’d hardly call it tightly written: I was surprised when it won Best Screenplay at Cannes, and I’m doubly surprised to see it here. And The Brutalist, which I loved, struggles in its second half largely due to its screenplay. Meanwhile, September 5 was…fine. Substitute those for The Seed of the Sacred Fig for its deft blending of socio-political metaphor and a psychological thriller, I Saw The TV Glow for fashioning a universe whole cloth and making it emotionally gutting, and Challengers for effortlessly juggling multiple timelines while giving us the single most satisfying callback of the year.

Writing (Adapted Screenplay)

  • A Complete Unknown
  • Conclave
  • Emilia Pérez
  • Nickel Boys
  • Sing Sing

What will win? Here, I think the Academy’s love of (good!) middlebrow dramas will tip the scales in favor of Peter Straughan for Conclave.

What should win? Sing Sing is my runner-up pick, and in most years it would probably be a lock: It’s cathartic and stirring. But as an act of adaptation, Nickel Boys is astounding on multiple levels. If you’ve read the novel, you probably understand just how difficult it would be to put on screen. RaMell Ross and Joslyn Barnes turn that difficulty into a strength, making the inability to depict certain aspects a thesis of the film. It’s staggeringly clever.

What should have been nominated instead? There was no more radical act of adaptation this year than Vera Drew and Bri LeRose’s The People’s Joker, whose queer reimagining of Batman lore makes the perfect argument for why we continue to rework and repackage existing stories. Throw in Zach Baylin’s screenplay for The Order, which adds surprising complexity to a terrifying true story. Lose Emilia Pérez and A Complete Unknown, both of which lacked the courage of their convictions: Splitting the difference between “easy viewing” and “provocation,” they wound up saying nothing.

Actor In A Supporting Role

  • Yura Borisov (Anora)
  • Kieran Culkin (A Real Pain)
  • Edward Norton (A Complete Unknown)
  • Guy Pearce (The Brutalist)
  • Jeremy Strong (The Apprentice)

Who will win? People can cry “category fraud” all they want, but running Kieran Culkin in Supporting has clearly paid off: His is the most certain victory of the night.

Who should win? This might be the single strongest category of this year’s Oscars; all five performances are great. But Kieran would also get my vote: He lives up to the hype. (For what it’s worth, I’d argue he does function as a sort of supporting character on steroids: However much screen time he has, the narrative is all about Jesse Eisenberg’s response to, and inability to access, Culkin’s character. Granted, by that logic Timothée Chalamet should also have run in Supporting for A Complete Unknown, which is exactly the sort of trolling Dylan would have approved of.)

Who should have been nominated instead? Again, this is an extremely strong category. But Nicholas Hoult blew me away with his portrayal of a white supremacist in The Order, and all of I Saw The TV Glow hinges on the magnetic pull of Jack Haven’s Maddy. Lose Jeremy Strong and (heretical opinion forthcoming) Edward Norton. If I had three more spots to spare, I’d throw in Mike Faist for Challengers, Mark Eydelshteyn for Anora, and Jason Schwartzman for his hilarious not-technically-Ginsberg-but-I-mean-it’s-kinda-sorta-Ginsberg turn in Queer—but I’ve already cut two worthy contenders, and refuse to shed any more blood.

Actress In A Supporting Role

  • Monica Barbaro (A Complete Unknown)
  • Ariana Grande (Wicked)
  • Felicity Jones (The Brutalist)
  • Isabella Rossellini (Conclave)
  • Zoe Saldaña (Emilia Pérez)

Who will win? Despite starring in the awards season equivalent of the Hindenburg, Zoe Saldaña still seems poised to take home the win. If the Academy were looking for a safer choice, Ariana Grande would run away with this—and still has a solid chance to. But I think they’ll wait until Wicked: For Good to give G[a]linda her flowers.

Who should win? Look, I want Isabella Rossellini to get a lifetime achievement award as much as the next person, and it’s shocking that this is her first Oscar nom. But Conclave is no Blue Velvet, and as strong as she is in this role, it feels too minor for me to give her the trophy. The cinephile in me wants to award Felicity Jones for her career-best work in The Brutalist, but in truth, I think Ariana Grande has earned this. Comic performances are too often sidelined by the Academy, and hers is as deserving as any I’ve seen in recent memory.

Who should have been nominated instead? The Piano Lesson seems to have been buried by the Netflix algorithm, but Danielle Deadwyler is a force of nature in it as Berniece. Aunjanue Ellis-Taylor also deserves serious attention for her work in Nickel Boys. Swap them for Saldaña (who does solid work given the circumstances, but is still acting in an over-the-top melodrama) and Rossellini (I’m going against the grain with this one, but I just don’t think there’s enough there there).

Actor In A Leading Role

  • Adrien Brody (The Brutalist)
  • Timothée Chalamet (A Complete Unknown)
  • Colman Domingo (Sing Sing)
  • Ralph Fiennes (Conclave)
  • Sebastian Stan (The Apprentice)

Who will win? It’s a dead heat between Brody and Chalamet, but I give the edge to Timotheé, whose momentum has only grown since his killer appearance on Saturday Night Live. Adrien was also featured on a recent SNL, though I somehow doubt that one’s helping his chances.

Who should win? I’d be more than happy with Brody or Chalamet taking this, and intellectually I’m inclined to give it to Brody. But my heart belongs to Colman Domingo, whose performance in Sing Sing—and facility at matching the energy of first-time actors—feels most worthy of celebration.

Who should have been nominated instead? Sebastian Stan deserves to be here, but they picked the wrong movie: He’s great in The Apprentice, but he’s even better in A Different Man. Keep the name, swap the titles. Then bump Ralph Fiennes, whose excellent work in Conclave still didn’t grab my attention as much as Josh O’Connor did in Challengers. (For the record: I’m calling Zendaya and O’Connor leads, and Faist supporting. Apologies to the relationship anarchy types, but this throuple has a hierarchy).

Actress In A Leading Role

  • Cynthia Erivo (Wicked)
  • Karla Sofía Gascón (Emilia Pérez)
  • Mikey Madison (Anora)
  • Demi Moore (The Substance)
  • Fernanda Torres (I’m Still Here)

Who will win? The momentum building for Anora could push Mikey Madison over the top, but I expect Demi Moore will retain her lead. Hollywood loves a comeback story, and this one is as juicy as it gets.

Who should win? Fernanda Torres is incredible in I’m Still Here, and Madison has enough charisma to bend an entire movie to her will. But Demi Moore’s turn in The Substance is vulnerable, self-referential, and fearlessly committed. I’ll be thrilled to see her take home the gold.

Who should have been nominated instead? Cynthia Erivo is great as usual, but (plug your ears, theater kids) I just don’t think the character of Elphaba has enough complexity to make for a winning lead performance. And Karla Sofía Gascón charmed my sleep-deprived self well enough at Cannes, but in the sober light of day…she’s gotta go. Trade them for Juliette Gariépy, who is enigmatic and captivating in Red Rooms, and Lily Collias, whose work in Good One is somehow quiet and earth-shattering. (Note: I haven’t been able to catch Hard Truths yet, but by all accounts Marianne Jean-Baptiste is more deserving than any of these nominees.)

Directing

  • Jacques Audiard (Emilia Pérez)
  • Sean Baker (Anora)
  • Brady Corbet (The Brutalist)
  • Coralie Fargeat (The Substance)
  • James Mangold (A Complete Unknown)

Who will win? It’s a coin toss between Baker/Corbet for Director and Anora/The Brutalist for Picture, but something in me suspects the Academy will spread the wealth this year: Give Director to the more audacious work, and Picture to the bigger crowdpleaser. With that in mind, I’m calling Brady Corbet for the win.

Who should win? I’d love to see Baker or Fargeat take home the gold, but ultimately I agree with the Academy in my head: The Brutalist is Brady Corbet’s singular vision, and the culmination of gallons of blood, sweat, and tears. It’s an achievement that deserves to be championed.

Who should have been nominated instead? Spoilers for the next section, but RaMell Ross directed what I’d consider by far to be the most moving and formally accomplished film of the year with Nickel Boys. He deserves this honor more than anyone. Also throw Luca Guadagnino into the mix for Challengers: I imagine if he’d gone to bat for that instead of Queer this year, he might have made it here himself. Lose Audiard and Mangold, both of whom have made far more deserving movies in the past and will have plenty of chances to do so again.

Best Picture

  • Anora
  • The Brutalist
  • A Complete Unknown
  • Conclave
  • Dune: Part Two
  • Emilia Pérez
  • I’m Still Here
  • Nickel Boys
  • The Substance
  • Wicked

What will win? In a year that feels like a tug of war between traditional Oscar fare (A Complete Unknown, Conclave, Emilia Pérez, Wicked) and more challenging cinematic swings (The Brutalist, I’m Still Here, Nickel Boys, The Substance), two films split the difference by being both crowd-pleasing and critically beloved: Anora and Dune: Part Two. And ranked choice voting means there’s a big advantage to straddling both sides of the fence. If you’d told me last summer that this would be the state of things, I’d say Dune: Part Two had it in the bag: It’s a major spectacle, and Denis Villeneuve has been building Hollywood cred for years. But that decidedly isn’t how the year shook out, and the fact that an unapologetic, Palme d’Or-winning tragi-comedy about a sex worker is now the obvious front-runner tells you just how much we’re evolving as a culture. And I say, bring it on. Anora is my bet for Best Picture, and I’ll be cheering when it happens.

What should win? With that said, Anora isn’t my personal preference, even if I’m excited for it to win. Nickel Boys is the more accomplished and the more important work. Unfortunately, I don’t think it stands a chance. As far as the Academy has come, there’s still only so much you can challenge the viewer and take home the top prize. But for what it’s worth, I believe Nickel Boys is the nominee most likely to stand the test of time. A decade from now, audiences will look back and wonder why the hell we slept on a masterpiece.

What should have been nominated instead? If you really want to know my thoughts on this, you can check out my essay about the best films of the year, or the Top 10 list I gave on my podcast. But in the spirit of keeping Best Picture as a combination of populist and artsy fare, I’ll opt for a lighter touch. Lose A Complete Unknown and Wicked, and substitute them for two other star-driven vehicles: Challengers and Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga. Swap out Emilia Pérez with its clumsy attempts at “allyship”, and replace it with the more honest trans expression of I Saw The TV Glow. And if you’re willing to stretch the classic voter just a bit out of their comfort zone, drop one Catholic Church drama for another. Ralph Fiennes is great in Conclave, but have you tried Cillian Murphy in Small Things Like These?


Phew! And with that, I’m calling it a night. Be sure to tune in to tomorrow’s broadcast so you can watch me be wrong in real time.

Cannes 2024 Coverage

Over the years, I’ve had a tradition of publishing post-festival “round-up”s on this site. With Cannes 2024, I’m bucking that trend—not for lack of content, but because I’ve already written entirely too much!

This year, I was proud to contribute five articles to David Chen’s Decoding Everything newsletter, giving live updates on the fest. Despite being framed around individual red carpet events, each piece functions more like a miniature round-up: part travelogue, part running tally of titles to watch, part in-depth review. Churning these out while also trying to catch 3-4 premieres a day was absolute chaos, and I loved every minute of it. I hope you’ll give them a read:

  1. [CANNES 2024 DISPATCH – FURIOSA: A MAD MAX SAGA]
  2. [CANNES 2024: FRANCIS FORD COPPOLA’S ‘MEGALOPOLIS’ IS A BEWILDERING MESS]
  3. [CANNES 2024: ‘HORIZON: AN AMERICAN SAGA – CHAPTER 1’ IS BARELY A MOVIE]
  4. [CANNES 2024: SEAN BAKER’S ‘ANORA’ IS ONE OF THE BEST FILMS OF THE YEAR]
  5. [CANNES 2024: THE PRIZEWINNERS YOU’LL BE HEARING ABOUT FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR]

Best Films of 2023: Appendix

Cut to the chase: Want to see this year’s actual list? Head over to Decoding Everything.

Previous write-ups: Check out the last decade of end-of-year lists to get a sense of our similarities and differences.

Podcast: You can listen to my straightforward Top 10 list on The Spoiler Warning.

Introduction

This is my 10th consecutive year of writing Best Of movie roundups. But for the first time since I conceived of this tradition, this year’s write-up will not be hosted on my personal blog. Instead, I was thrilled to be asked to contribute my 2023 Best Of list to David Chen’s newsletter, Decoding Everything.

As someone who has been listening to David since long before I started writing about movies, this was a massive honor. I’m well aware that my style—dense, ruminating, personal—doesn’t always make for the most attention-grabbing content. So the opportunity to reach a wide audience, in collaboration with a creator I admire, was huge for me. I’m immensely proud of the resulting piece, and hope you’ll read it before scrolling any further.

[DECODING EVERYTHING: 10 CINEMATIC PAIRINGS THAT DEFINED 2023]

Still, I’m a completist at heart, so I had to put something here for posterity. Rather than just link to the essay and be done with it, I thought it’d be fun to use this space as a sort of Addendum or Special Features section. So let’s dive into a few extras, starting with a bonus pairing which I really loved, but couldn’t make fit within the storytelling theme of the Decoding Everything piece.

Bonus: Visual Feasts — Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse and The Taste of Things

It’s a maxim I hold dear for art, meals, and Top 10 lists: Sometimes more is more. Though these write-ups tend to fixate on narrative and theme, those aren’t the primary reasons I go to the theater. The pleasures of cinema are far less textual than textural, communicating something more expressive than a plot.

This bonus award is for maximalism in filmmaking, highlighting two films which have virtually nothing in common except for a shared sense of abundance. Indulgent and overwhelming in the best possible way, they enchanted me from the opening frame.

A case could be made that Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse was the greatest technical triumph in cinema this year. It’s become a standard bit of hyperbole to claim that “every frame could be a painting,” but here it would arguably be damning with faint praise. Given its manic synthesis of visual styles, it’s more accurate to say that every frame could be its own exhibit—variations on a theme by a collective of creators, in conversation with one another but unmistakably distinct. From the pulsing pastels of Spider-Gwen to the zine-inspired anarchy of Spider-Punk, it’s bursting at the seams with visual invention. And like Everything Everywhere All At Once before it, that overstimulation is vital to its emotional core. Miles’ struggle to stay grounded in the face of swirling contradictions rings all too familiar in our present media environment. It’s a feeling best conveyed by way of cacophony.

If Spider-Man overwhelmed my visual cortex, The Taste Of Things had other senses on its mind. Tran Anh Hung’s luxurious drama about a gourmand and his muse is as antithetical to Miles’ multiverse as one can get. It’s intimate, unhurried, and obsessively focused. Though the dialogue is technically uttered in French, the characters prefer to speak in a more universal tongue: the love language of food being prepared and enjoyed. Large swaths of runtime are devoted to their passion, most notably a near-wordless half hour sequence in the kitchen. The camera glides through the crowded space, peeping into bubbling pots of stew and lingering on sweaty hunks of veal with voyeuristic intensity. From my vantage point in the front row at the red carpet premiere, the experience was borderline pornographic. Eight months later I still vividly recall a glistening rack of lamb splayed beyond my field of vision, literally too much decadence to take in at once. You never forget your first time. I entered the theater hungry, left positively ravenous, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.1

And now, in the spirit of lush excess, let’s throw in a beverage pairing!

Supplemental Pairing: 1950s Vintages

I caught 125 new releases last year, but that only reflects about half of my total film intake. For the remainder, I continued a tradition I began early in the pandemic by marching backwards through film history to fill in embarrassing blindspots. Though I pull from a few sources, my biggest inspiration for this effort is the Filmspotting Madness shortlist, a collection of about 100 titles which feed into their annual March Madness-style tournament to name the “greatest” film of a given decade. This year’s tournament is focused on the 1950s, and the lineup is fantastic.

So, in the spirit of maximalism, let’s add a supplemental pairing to complement the main course. For each of the ten themes from my Decoding Everything piece, I’ll offer you one or two barrel-aged expressions from my personal cellar—treasured discoveries from my 1950s marathon which complement the dialogue the two 2023 films are engaged in.

10. Coming Home Can Be a Trial — ‘Beau Is Afraid’ and ‘Omen’
Pairs with: Wild Strawberries (1957)

This pairing is about fraught family gatherings: films which use heightened storytelling to explore the complicated emotional inheritance parents pass down to their children. Wild Strawberries (1957) fits beautifully in this regard while also flipping the script, focusing instead on the messy combination of grief and guilt which the parent feels about the inheritance they’ve created.

9. Invisible Protections — ‘Shayda’ and ‘Are You There God? It’s Me Margaret’
Pairs with: Pather Panchali (1955)

These two films celebrate mothers who work tirelessly to protect their children from an often brutal, uncaring world, while also functioning as retrospective coming-of-age stories. Satyajit Ray’s entire Apu Trilogy does this brilliantly. While Aparajito (1956) is arguably the most mother-focused of the three, I have to insist that you watch them in order, which means recommending the first (and also, by my reckoning, the greatest) entry: Pather Panchali (1955).

8. Unexpected Compositions — ‘Maestro’ and ‘The Blue Caftan’
Pairs with: A Star is Born (1954) and A Place in the Sun (1951)

This pairing has a few layers to it: 1. what it means to love an artist, 2. what it means to love someone for whom you will never be fully “enough,” and (though I tried to tread lightly on spoilers) 3. the pressures the closet imposes on a marriage, both for the man who has to hide his fullest self and for the woman who loves him. For #1 and #2, I’d suggest George Cukor’s A Star is Born (1954), both for the thematic resonance of loving an artist, and for the fun tie-in to Bradley Cooper’s last directorial outing. While I found this year’s 1950’s marathon surprisingly subversive, the Hays Code still generally kept #3 in the realm of subtext. For that one, I’ll throw in A Place in the Sun (1951), a film which—especially if you’re familiar with Montgomery Clift’s personal life and his friendship with Elizabeth Taylor—functions as a moving metaphor for sexuality and repression. It’s a film about a man caught between two worlds, and the women he loves whom he nevertheless hurts.

7. Thriving is Overrated — ‘You Hurt My Feelings’ and ‘The Holdovers’
Pairs with: Marty (1955)

There are many films from the 50’s which would pair with each of these individually. But taken together, as an ode to people who learn to be at peace with their shortcomings and use that honesty to build meaningful relationships, I can’t think of a more heartwarming companion than Marty (1955). Ernest Borgnine and Betsy Blair’s unlikely romance will melt the heart of even the toughest critic, while also begging the question “Are we honestly supposed to believe these people are not attractive?”

6. Double-Edged Dreams — ‘Dream Scenario’ and ‘BlackBerry’
Pairs with: A Face in the Crowd (1957)

This pairing is about the downside of ambition, and particularly the way that fame can make confidence curdle into a toxic sort of entitlement. Elia Kazan’s A Face in the Crowd (1957) is a shockingly prescient look at that phenomenon. But rather than inhabit the mind of the man who throttles to fame, this focuses on the people in his orbit, on the outside looking in, simultaneously fascinated and horrified by the ascent. While Cage and Howerton are both excellent in their respective roles, neither can light a candle to Andy Griffith’s mind-blowing turn as Lonesome Rhodes.

5. Nothing Is Theoretical — ‘Oppenheimer’ and ‘The Teachers’ Lounge’
Pairs with: The Human Condition: No Greater Love (1959)

These films serve as cautionary tales about the limits of theory, and the importance of letting real-world empathy intrude on any calculation. Masaki Kobayashi’s The Human Condition trilogy may be the most monumental work of fiction on this subject in any medium. By focusing on the experiences of a Japanese soldier, it also provides a useful counterbalance to Oppenheimer’s (intentionally) narrow Western lens. While the three films function best as a single statement, if you can only see one it should be No Greater Love (1959), which traces one man’s loss of idealism when presented with real-world suffering.

4. The More Satisfying Narrative — ‘Anatomy of a Fall’ and ‘American Fiction’
Pairs with: Anatomy of a Murder (1959)

This pairing is about films which blur the lines between truth and narrative satisfaction, interrogating which stories we tend to gravitate to and why. While Rashomon (1950) arguably set the template for stories-about-storytelling, I just can’t resist pairing this with Anatomy of a Murder (1959), the courtroom drama whose title Anatomy of a Fall is alluding to. This Jimmy Stewart classic is a brilliant deconstruction of confirmation bias, playing on audience expectations to reveal how easily our convictions can be manipulated. To anyone who thinks major American films weren’t subversive or ambiguous until New Hollywood showed up, I’d strongly recommend giving this one a watch.

3. When The Pieces Don’t Fit — ‘The Boy and the Heron’ and ‘Asteroid City’
Pairs with: A Man Escaped (1956) and Floating Weeds (1959)

These are stories about characters who derive meaning from confined spaces, walled-off worlds. Not coincidentally, they’re also made by famously meticulous directors who create “walled-off” worlds of their own. So it’s only fitting that I pair this with something by a similarly meticulous director. Hell, I’ll give you two. Bresson’s A Man Escaped (1956) is a moving depiction of one man’s ingenious way of finding meaning, and hope, in a WWII prison camp—his quiet recitations of faith, drained of all affect, are as good a proof of Wes Anderson’s “You can’t wake up if you don’t fall asleep” mantra as anything I’ve seen. Add to that Ozu’s Floating Weeds (1959), whose traveling troupe of actors use confinement and repetition to work through more complex emotions. A case could be made that Ozu is a shared inspiration for both modern directors—a master of composition known for his recurring collaborators and his empathetic depiction of children, who deals as much with head-on sentiment as he does with solitude, negative space.

2. While The World Burns — ‘The Zone of Interest’ and ‘Killers of the Flower Moon’
Pairs with: Night and Fog (1956) and The Sweet Smell of Success (1957)

This is a somber pairing about people who have severed their moral compasses, and the atrocities they (we) are capable of as a result. So it only feels fitting to pair this with Night and Fog (1956), Resnais’ powerful documentary about the Holocaust and the blinders the world put on in response. Warning: For as much as this is essential viewing, it is also graphic in its depiction and should not be entered lightly. If fiction is more your speed today, I’ll recommend The Sweet Smell of Success (1957), a gloriously dark character study about men who shut off their consciences and wield language as a weapon.

1. Containing Multitudes — ‘Past Lives’ and ‘Perfect Days’
Pairs with: Nights of Cabiria (1957)

These two films are about emotional plurality, following characters who hold multiple conflicting feelings at once. Nights of Cabiria (1957) springs to mind as a lovely complement to that idea. Like Perfect Days, it’s about a person whom society would typically ignore, who finds joy in life’s oddities and minutiae. Like Past Lives, it’s about a woman coming to terms with her identity, her romantic entanglements, and what alternate paths might be available to her. But the main reason I’d consider these together is a specific quality they all share: a perfect (and, in many ways, remarkably similar) closing shot. I won’t spoil any of them; just know that you’re in for a treat.

Closing Bits

It has now been a full decade since I started doing these year end write-ups. When I started, this site was mostly devoted to weekly film reviews. Nowadays I put my immediate thoughts on Letterboxd, and reserve this space for lengthier reflections. This year I wrote an essay about Past Lives and Eternal Sunshine which meant quite a lot to me. I also wrote a recap of Cannes. In addition to my lengthier 2023 recap, I also wrote a TIFF retrospective for David Chen’s Decoding Everything newsletter. Both festival roundups cover a handful of titles on this list.

Over at The Spoiler Warning podcast, we’re still going strong at a (near) weekly cadence: The vast majority of the films above we’ve discussed at length on the podcast, either in self-contained review episodes or in festival deep dives. You can listen to our 2023 recap episode to hear me wax poetic about the above (and a dozen other) favorites, or listen to our 2024 State of the Podcast episode to hear a bit about the 17(!) year history of the pod and what we might shake up in the future.

I do this as a passion project, but many others do it professionally. I firmly believe in financially supporting the people whose creative outputs I enjoy. For a few movie-adjacent suggestions: I’m a proud supporter of (podcasts) Filmspotting, The Filmcast, Decoding TV, Blank Check, and The Next Picture Show, as well as (individuals) Walter Chaw, David Chen, Mike D’Angelo, Robert Daniels, Marya E. Gates, Emily St. James, Nathan Rabin, Keith Phipps and Scott Tobias. I’d encourage you check them out, and throw in a few bucks if you’re able.

See you next year!


  1. To whittle my list(s) down to a manageable size, I arbitrarily restricted myself to fiction. But if you’re still hungry after watching The Taste Of Things, I highly recommend Frederick Wiseman’s behemoth documentary Menus Plaisirs – Les Troisgros. If you thought watching me program a robot was sensual, wait until you get behind the scenes of a 3 Star Michelin restaurant.

Parallel Tracks: Past Lives and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Note: This review contains spoilers for both Past Lives and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

With your body next to me, its sleepy sighing
Sounds like waves upon a sea too far to reach
– Okkervil River, “Seas Too Far To Reach”


You dream in a language that I can’t understand.
It’s like there’s this whole place inside of you where I can’t go.
– Arthur to Nora, Past Lives


I can’t remember anything without you.
– Joel to Clementine, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

There’s an early exchange in Past Lives that I can’t seem to shake. Nora has just been accepted to an artist residency in Montauk, and she’s sharing the news with Hae-Sung over Skype. She’s clearly excited, and who could blame her? Writing professionally has been a dream of hers ever since she was a twelve-year-old “crybaby” in Seoul, and here it is, her first big break—a moment of validation, likely the first of its kind, and a possible springboard from academia into a full-fledged career. But the first thing she says to him has nothing to do with careerist aspirations or practical concerns. Instead, she’s swept up in the romantic idea of the location itself: “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.”

Celine Song and I are almost exactly the same age; by all context clues, so is Nora. And while I can’t speak to their lives, I can speak to mine: Back in grad school, I had this tendency to imagine my life in the artistic third person. A sleep-deprived marathon for a conference submission was a knotted run-on sentence in a postmodern novel; a blurry cab ride to the airport at sunrise became a shoegaze soundtrack, a melody etched in negative space; a solo cocktail in a hotel lobby bar involved 35mm film grain and a gentle fade to black. “Main character syndrome” is accurate but feels misleading, somehow. I wasn’t trying to make my life bigger so much as lend meaning to its smallness, using the only language I had at my disposal: the art that I consumed.

Virtually the whole of my identity at this time was wrapped up in my “favorites.” Author: David Foster Wallace.1 Band: Okkervil River. Movie: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. These were hidden treasures I’d discovered when I was at my most malleable: art which moved me, challenged me, became a prism through which I could rectify the world and my place in it. When I evangelized my favorites to you—and oh, trust me, I would—it wasn’t meant to be a litmus test so much as a bid for connection. Only by sharing a vocabulary could you properly understand me. And that was love, as best as I could figure: to be fully seen, fully understood.

Past Lives Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Few works of art stoked that desire in me quite like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Specifically this image: Joel and Clementine, hand in hand, barreling through the deepest recesses of Joel’s mind. His anxieties, his neuroses, his foundational scars, all of them laid bare and beautiful, communally shared. Those gnawing regrets he can now perfectly atone for; those room-splitting silences he can now give voice to, explain. The gap between intention and action, between the perfect pitch we hear in our heads and our atonal attempts to transpose it—all of those barriers that make being a person feel impossible, in this fantastical vision cease to exist. Clementine can finally see Joel exactly as Joel sees himself. Or, rather, his internalized version of Clementine can.

If that last caveat seems like a crucial distinction, the young idealist in me had no issue ignoring it. Joel’s memory of Clementine was Clementine as far as I was concerned.2 She was, after all, an inextricable part of his psyche: the logical conclusion of his honest journey inward, a retroactive fulfillment of even his childhood desires, a Grand Unified Theory Of Joel who made all of his misshapen wants add up to something elegant, profound. Joel and Clementine were soulmates, destined to meet and re-meet in Montauk a thousand times over because it was tautologically correct, because they could be no other way. Having recognized the essential truth of their relationship, love demanded that Joel move heaven and earth to preserve it. Whether the real Clementine who erased him would be inclined to agree…well, to me, this was never a question. She had to agree, because it was right. It was the perfect love story.

In my early 20s I carried a similar conviction, a faith in the hard truth of inherently soft things. It manifested itself in my ranking of art, in my narrow political certainties, and especially, most damningly, in love. Whether coaxing crushes into relationships by way of grand gestures or crafting impassioned arguments to save ones that had already ended, I behaved as if the gap between outside and inside hinged only on myself. On my ability to make others see things as I saw them. As if the tiny carbon copy of other people I carried in my head comprised the whole of their identity: living concepts I could interrogate, plug in to philosophic formulas and output unassailable proofs. If I had earnestly introspected and concluded that we were meant to be together, cinematic logic compelled me to fight for it. The alternative was to lose something once-in-a-lifetime, something about which I had been certain.

Past Lives Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Hae-Sung is making his own grand gesture of sorts in the third act of Past Lives: a last-ditch effort to right what the universe has wronged. He has loved the carbon copy of Nora that lives in his head for some 24 years, been certain that she was “the one,” and the audience is given every reason to agree with his assessment. After all, he and Nora share a wordless connection, a history, a culture. We open with them together in her childhood memory, that malleable place where Joel could only project Clementine retroactively. They recur in each other’s stories, and when they intersect they literally converse in the language of her dreams. “Childhood sweethearts who reconnect twenty years later and realize they were meant for each other”—it’s a narrative Hae-Sung himself might have drafted in the artistic third person. He may not quite know what he’s hoping to accomplish as he boards that 14-hour flight to JFK, but the impulse that carries him is all too familiar: a relentless conviction of the heart.

Whereas Arthur feels uncertain, and for very good reason: In any literary analysis pitting him against Hae-Sung, there’s no question of who comes out on top. Arthur has no access to the world of Nora’s dreams, try though he may to study up on the vocabulary. As for memory, he only catches whatever fragments she chooses to express. And if she hadn’t met him in Montauk, some other warm body may well have taken his place. Their marriage is, at its root, a matter of happenstance—there’s no elegant theory of why they must always be so. A thousand different lives might have yielded a thousand different husbands, parallel tracks leading Nora to alternate versions of “happy.” Better or worse? Who could say? That conversation they have after Hae-Sung’s first visit is my favorite part of Past Lives because it’s so achingly honest, borne of yet another too-familiar feeling: impotence. Insufficiency. The recognition that you might be less than enough, and that it isn’t within your power to change it. To Arthur’s spiraling neuroses, Nora has only this to add: “You’re forgetting the part where I love you.”

Past Lives Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Sometimes it’s easy to overthink things, to forget what really matters. Nora—not the mental mirror image Hae-Sung has adored since twelve, not the novelistic concept Arthur (only half-jokingly) critiques, but the real, flesh-and-blood protagonist at the heart of Past Lives—her decisions and actions are hers alone, and they matter not because they’re “meant to be” but because they actually happened. Her presence is a tangible, valuable thing. Her love is a continual choice. And she possesses more inside than could ever be perfectly shared. Essential parts of her identity (as Korean, as immigrant, as individual) Arthur will never fully understand; years of hard-fought, uncinematic closeness, of separate sets of roots straining to share soil, which Hae-Sung cannot romanticize or theorize away. Of course Arthur is feeling less than enough; of course he isn’t Nora’s everything. The infinite interiority of Nora’s life and the ghosts of other lives she carries alongside her—that impossible scale which resists comprehension, which will forever keep him on the outside looking in—it isn’t a barrier to love, it’s love’s essence. “You make my life so much bigger.” Any version of Nora that could fit in his head would never be capable of widening him.

It took me years of false starts to learn this lesson, and I suspect I’ll spend my whole life continuing to re-learn it. That love is not about winning or possessing or making them understand, as if the only thing keeping them from recognizing my own inherent rightness were a lack of understanding, a faulty transmission. To truly love someone is to open yourself up to their enormity; to be reminded of the size and shape of everything you do not know, an immersion in a language you’ll never speak with perfect fluency; to be wrong, repeatedly, and (if you manage to stay vulnerable) to let that wrongness make you bigger. My marriage should shape me. My friendships should challenge me. My worldview should be continually fractured and re-formed. If my grad student self saw life as an honest journey inward, today, when I’m at my best, I strive for outwardness, awareness. Collisions to knock me outside of myself.

Collisions. Encounters. Inyeon. Hae-Sung and Arthur, two competing characters in the novelization of Nora’s story, sharing an improbable 3am drink. They don’t have to exist as opposite sides of an argument, because what Nora is wrestling with has nothing to do with a proof: There’s no correctness in love, no single right way to be, no predestined meeting in Montauk. The favorites of my youth which I’d mistaken for guidebooks, they were just a handful of paths among many—art brushing past me and imprinting fragments of truth, inherently bound by experience. What I adore about Past Lives is that it makes room for the whole of it; it doesn’t ask us, or its characters, to choose. Hae-Sung can honor his love without forcing an ultimatum. Nora can grieve one possibility even as she commits to another. She can be honest with Arthur about everything Hae-Sung shakes loose, and Arthur can intentionally see it as goodness. (“I’m really glad you came here. It was the right thing to do.”) They can stay open to these parallel trains out of Montauk, receive their rumbling underfoot not as a threat but opportunity—a chance to find beauty in the scenic route not taken, to be made wider by the presence of other stories. “Perfect” is a point that insists upon itself, repeating forever, incapable of change. Past Lives isn’t a perfect love story. It’s something better.


  1. Footnote reference very much intentional, but also: Patricia Lockwood just published a brilliant essay on Wallace’s complicated legacy (magnetic/infuriating/dazzling/self-aggrandizing/violently misogynistic) and what it means to wear an artist as an identity, to in a small way “become” them. She gives voice to this stuff way better than I could hope to.

  2. Make no mistake, I revere Eternal Sunshine and still consider it among my very favorite movies. This isn’t a critique of the text of the film, so much as of my clumsy attempts to emulate it in my youth. Watching later in life, especially paired with Kaufman’s later work like Anomalisa and I’m Thinking Of Ending Things, it feels shocking how little I absorbed a key piece of subtext the script was quite literally shouting it at me: Clementine repeatedly insisting that she’s a person, not a concept, while the detritus of Joel’s memory crumbles around her.

Cannes 2023: Recap

Brief thoughts on the festival as a whole; a quick day-by-day accounting; rankings


Intro: Back in Black [Tie, Repeatedly, For 11 Consecutive Evenings]

It was March 2020 and the future was bright. My whirlwind “3 Days In Cannes” in 2018 had functioned as a gateway drug, followed by a full-festival bender in 2019. Despite having a badge that came with no ability to book tickets, I’d managed to catch every single film in competition that last year—a grueling process requiring a tolerance for uncertainty; sleeplessness, sweat, and dry erase markers. The gems (Parasite, Portrait of a Lady on Fire) had made all the pain worthwhile, but this time around there was no need to suffer: I’d just been approved for a Press accreditation.1 Throw in a kickass AirBnB three blocks from the Palais and a business class upgrade booked with United points, and I was ready to experience the Croisette in style.

You know the sob story. We all have specific experiences we lost to the pandemic, and I’m under no illusion that my first world problems deserve anyone’s pity. But for the full duration of lockdown it weighed heavily as a symbol, that theatre packed with 2,300 strangers from every corner of the globe. It was the Platonic ideal of the Thing I Can’t Believe We Used To Do; communal, spontaneous, anxiety-free. When my (now) wife threw me a Cannes-themed birthday in May 2020, it wasn’t just commemorating a single cancelled trip. It was about that special, transportive feeling of being totally surrounded. Here’s what I wrote at the time:

When will I sit in an auditorium with 2300 strangers again? Will every cough make me anxious? Will I wipe down my seat? Will my bowtie be paired with an N95 mask? Will we even be able to fully let go, with our mortality making so much goddamn noise? Film will survive, and I’ll continue to love it, but there’s a naivety I’m not sure I’ll ever get back.

My fear was misguided; we did get it back. Some quite a bit sooner than others. To this asthmatic who’s had a lifelong struggle with breathing-related panic attacks, the pandemic has been long and the journey very slow. I didn’t re-enter movie theaters until 2022, and even then it’d be for half-empty screenings, mask firmly affixed (and still is, as I type this on the plane). When I finally came down with COVID this past December, it was predictably miserable but also something of a relief. I would still maintain precautions, but I resolved to no longer let them stop me: This year, I was coming back to Cannes.

Walking into the Grand Théâtre Lumière for the first time in four years, I was flooded with an emotion that had nothing to do with what was on screen. Chaotic life continued. I could sit shoulder to shoulder with total strangers dressed to the nines for no reason; I could lose myself in the accumulated pitch of 2,300 creaking chairs and the percussion of whispered consonants in languages I don’t speak; I could feel the swell when the lights went dim and the curtains opened and that Morricone theme began—the shared hope that something beautiful might occur. Even if it never did, the hope alone would be worth it. It feels so good to wait with baited breath, together.

Seated in the GTL, the lone mask in sight

Luckily, I was able to do more than hold my breath. This was a fantastic couple weeks for watching movies, and I’d like to think I made the most of them. As with every year, chaos reigned supreme: I rarely had a ticket for anything until a few hours before the screening, and even my best planned days had their fair share of curveballs—infuriating rule changes, setbacks at security, tuxedoed sprints through crowded streets in the 4pm sun. Within that chaos, though, the new online booking system (paired with some nifty new tricks I’ll refrain from sharing in case I come again in future years) meant I was able to easily surpass my previous record. I caught 36 films this year, including 20/21 of the Competition slate, a handful of Un Certain Regard and Directors’ Fortnight screenings, and some of the buzziest Out Of Competition titles.2 The vast majority of these were premieres of some sort: I walked the red carpet a total of 22 times,3 which is a stat I’m pretty certain I never want to top. Nearly every one of those 36 had something to recommend it; at least a dozen I’d consider “great” and four or five were outstanding.

Every year the movies start to rhyme after a while, and this was no exception. Two related ideas in particular kept coming to the surface. The first has something to do with cognitive dissonance, with carving out meaning in a world constantly bombarding us with tragedy. How should we then live? What is that peculiar, human quality that lets us compartmentalize suffering—turn down the volume on the broadcast—and what happens when that hardens to a callous? Romantic, deluded, jaded, evil; radically different fruit born from the same root impulse. The second is about the illusion of control—the walled-off worlds we create for ourselves, the conscious narratives we draft, the rehearsals we conduct or the details we get lost in in an attempt to understand the unimaginable. Blustery lawyers, meticulous directors, actors seeking truth through imitation. When the light itself is blinding we focus on the shadow, or squeeze it through a pinhole to scale it down to human size.

One personal revelation was also hammered home on this trip: I am not invincible. Hindsight coats everything in a romantic sheen, but the truth is my first three days were pretty miserable. Maybe it’s age or the pandemic sleep schedule I’ve honed to a routine, but jet-lag wreaked absolute havoc on my system. For days I slept at most two hours a night and barely ate as a result. I remember one call in particular, despairing to Joanna that the sun was coming up and my alarm would be going off any minute. “Why set an alarm?” she asked. “What movie could possibly be more important your health?” She was, as usual, spot on. In that moment I cleared my morning schedule and, incredibly, fell asleep—a trick I’d repeat for many nights to come. I started to carve out dedicated blocks for naps and meals and treat them as inviolable. I even got back into running, at least 3 miles at least every other day. All of this cost me about ~10 additional screenings. I’d make the trade again in a heartbeat.

And with that, here’s a rapid-fire (no more than two sentences per entry, albeit with some serious semicolon and em-dash abuse) round-up of everything I watched at Cannes.

Daily Recap

“CO” denotes In Competition, “OOC” Out Of Competition, “UCR” Un Certain Regard, “DF” Directors’ Fortnight. “§” denotes a premiere.

My first sight of the Palais, a few hours after touchdown in Nice

DAY 0

  • I skipped the opener Jeanne du Barry over the Johnny Depp of it all, so this day was a gimme. Which is to say, I spent the entire afternoon trying and failing to sleep.

DAY 1

  • Occupied City, McQueen [OOC§]: A sprawling, four-hour behemoth of a documentary about the Holocaust as experienced in Amsterdam—narrating its history while documenting its present. Like Sebald’s Austerlitz, this communicates the scale of tragedy by way of numbing, overwhelming; it was challenging, hypnotic, and I loved it. (Review)
  • Anselm, Wenders [OOC§]: A 3D(!) documentary about the art of the titular Anselm Kiefer, this one hit me less as a film than as an installation that ought to be playing on loop in a museum. Slight in the grand scheme of things, but I quite enjoyed my time here, and the little hints of Wings of Desire sprinkled in really added to the experience. (Review)
  • Monster, Kore-eda [CO§]: A heartfelt drama about coming of age—how it feels inside, how the surrounding adults perceive it, and the often clumsy attempts to bridge that gap. This wasn’t Shoplifters but it was lovely all the same, and only gets better as it goes along—culminating in a grace note that might be my single favorite Kore-eda moment. (Review)
  • Homecoming, Corsini [CO§]: The story of a West African immigrant family returning to Corsica after a decade+ away, this wanted to be two films at once: one a wistful French drama (long conversations, luxurious shots of the ocean, everyone eventually has sex), the other a piercing interrogation of privilege and belonging. The latter was far more interesting than the former, but the juxtaposition felt muddy and conflicted. (Review)

DAY 2

  • The Sweet East, Williams [DF§]: An absurd, fantastical, vulgar road trip through America and its litany of Terrible Types Of Guys, as seen through the eyes of a disillusioned high school senior. This one was scrappy and overstuffed in a way that you’ll either love or hate: personally, I had a friggin blast. (Review)
  • I skipped Wang Bing’s Youth (Spring) premiere, telling myself I’d catch it the following morning. Jet lag had other plans; this remains the single competition film I was unable to catch.
  • That evening, I had my first and only failure at booking: Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny. A blessing in disguise, as this gave me time to eat my first actual, sit-down dinner of the trip.
  • Black Flies, Sauvaire [CO§]: An intense drama about an FDNY first responder who starts out as an idealist but is quickly beaten down by the job, this one is wall-to-wall misery porn. Well-executed for the most part, but socially verging on reprehensible; its moments of grace were too halfassed to counter the queasy vilification that preceded them. (Review)

DAY 3

  • As mentioned above, jet lag led me to cancel my morning Youth (Spring) reprise. Then, in what will probably go down as my biggest mistake of the festival, I intentionally skipped Nuri Bilge Ceylan’s About Dry Grasses to catch Cate Blanchett in…
  • The New Boy, Thornton [UCR§]: A plodding Australian historical drama about a nun who takes in orphans and an Aboriginal boy who challenges her preconceived notions. What began as merely “somewhat slow” eventually proved interminable, and indulges in tropes I can’t believe we’re still doing in 2023. (Review)
  • The Zone of Interest, Glazer [CO§]: A chilling and immaculately composed Holocaust anti-drama, showing the largely muted home life of an Auchswitz commandant while the atrocities he’s responsible for swirl in the periphery. This one was an absolute stunner from beginning to end—formally thrilling, emotionally provocative, moving in genuinely unexpected ways—and remained my favorite for the duration of the fest. (Review)
  • Four Daughters, Kaouther [CO§]: A documentary/narrative hybrid about a Tunisian single mother and her four daughters, two of whom are played by actors (for reasons better grappled with in the moment.) I truly have no idea how this will hit audiences in other settings, but experiencing it in close proximity to its subjects was one of my emotional highlights of the festival: I found it cathartic, incisive, and brave. (Review)
The standing ovation for Four Daughters, just across the aisle from the cast

DAY 4

  • A Strange Way of Life, Almodovar [OOC]: A 30-minute Western about two former lovers, a sheriff and the father of the outlaw he’s chasing. This is a barely-there little wisp of a story, but the cast (Pedro Pascal, Ethan Hawke) are always a pleasure to watch.
  • Goodbye Julia, Kordofani [UCR§]: The first Sudanese feature to premiere at Cannes, this uses a personal drama between two women (one a wealthy Arab, the other a Southerner she hires as a maid) to examine, by proxy, the tensions that eventually led to South Sudan’s independence. Doesn’t always get the levels right — it’s so open-hearted it can sometimes seem trivializing, putting murder and racism on equal footing with minor relationship drama — but I found it moving just the same. (Review)
Walking the carpet for Scorsese’s Killers of the Flower Moon

  • Killers of the Flower Moon, Scorsese [CO§]: A sprawling epic about the Osage murders in 1920s Oklahoma, Scorsese’s latest is a minor miracle: It not only bears the weight of unimaginable hype, it does so with panache and surprising cultural sensitivity. A fantastic cast (particularly Gladstone and DiCaprio), an earworm of a score, and a potent narrative with killer directorial flourishes sprinkled in all combine to make this a brilliant, crowd-pleasing spectacle. (Review)
  • May December, Haynes [CO§] Exploring the relationship between a woman of tabloid infamy and an actress who seeks to portray her, this pitch black comedy is best entered blind. Extremely fun to noodle on and provocative by design, but it’s got the sort of campy artifice that holds the viewer at arms’ length: I never could fully sink my teeth into this one. (Review)

DAY 5

  • Banel and Adama, Ramata-Toulaye Sy [CO]: A Senegalese romance which unfolds like a cautionary folk tale about two young lovers struggling to reconcile duty and desire. The style is gorgeous, prone to lush, impressionistic flourishes; visually striking, but ultimately lacking much staying power. (Review)
  • Anatomy of a Fall, Triet [CO§]: A courtroom drama about an author who may or may not have murdered her husband, Triet’s latest was firing on all cylinders: exquisitely paced, emotionally ambiguous, with dialogue that absolutely crackles. The moment I saw this I felt it deserved serious recognition—while I wouldn’t have personally given it the Palme, I’m happy to celebrate its victory. (Review)
  • Firebrand, Aïnouz [CO§]: A historical drama about Henry VIII and his (last) wife, Catherine Parr, this was virtually the definition of a middle-of-the-road biopic. Neither Vikander’s nuance nor Jude Law’s scenery-and-drumstick-chewing are enough to elevate it above a bloated episode of Game Of Thrones or a trashier Man For All Seasons. (Review)

DAY 6

  • Omen, Tshiani [UCR§]: The saga of a young Belgian couple (a Congolese man and his white fiance) on a trip to visit in-laws in Kinshasa, this directorial debut really blew me away. Endlessly creative, restless, energetic, veering between grounded & heightened, personal & social—this queer, Afrofuturistic fever dream was the best Un Certain Regard film by miles. (Review)
  • Fallen Leaves, Käurismaki [CO§]: A muted romantic comedy about two lonely blue-collar workers—one shy and empathetic, the other a secret alcoholic—which rises and falls entirely on its quietly absurd tone. I found it charming and chuckle-worthy, but it never added up to more than that for me; I can’t say I understand the critical acclaim this garnered. (Review)
  • Club Zero, Hausner [CO§]: A wickedly dark comedy about a prep school teacher / self help guru who encourages “conscious eating” in her students, this movie was ruthlessly committed to its premise—even if it made the audience squirm. Jessica Hausner shows an audacity I both admired and found hilarious; this one deserves far more love than it received. (Review)
  • The Book of Solutions, Gondry [DF]: A self-referential comedy about a manic depressive director who can’t seem to focus long enough to finish his movie, this was a sweet little ode to the creative process and the village it takes to support it. I turned 34 halfway through this screening and received it as a warm birthday hug—it’s a serious charmer. (Review)

DAY 7

  • Took the morning and afternoon off to do a relaxing bit of wandering through Antibes. Happy birthday to me!
Absinthe made the heart grow fonder during my afternoon of sightseeing in Antibes

  • Asteroid City, Anderson [CO§]: A movie about a broadcast about a play about an astronomical event in 1955, this kicks off like a sort of Moonrise Kingdom smothered in layers of narrative bubble wrap. Halfway through the film, though, something wonderful occurs, manipulating every layer in concert to achieve something profound: a thesis statement for what it means to be an Anderson movie, and one I cannot wait to revisit. (Review)
  • Kidnapped, Bellocchio [CO§]: A 19th century historical drama about a kidnapping and the subsequent political rift it incited, I found this movie slow as molasses and dramatically inert. Chalk it up to a late night screening and my inability to parse any Italian political subtext: This one didn’t work for me at all. (Review)

DAY 8

  • Terrestrial Verses, Asgari and Khatami [UCR]: Nine episodes, each one shot long, exploring the ways power structures can stifle individual expression in modern day Tehran. I tend to admire the spirit of protest alive in contemporary Iranian cinema, and this collection of dialogues (though simple) continued that trend. (Review)
  • Hopeless, Kim [UCR§]: A gangland drama set in a fictional Korean city, this looks like a million bucks and builds its (intense) tone well. Unfortunately it never could quite figure out how to end, blunting a personal journey which should have been razor sharp. (Review)
  • The Pot-Au-Feu, Hùng [CO§]: A period love story between a gourmand and his cook/muse told through lengthy scenes of food being prepared and enjoyed; this film was a total delight. Luxurious, indulgent, heartwarming, calming—Trần Anh Hùng teases out so many flavors from such a simple premise, and easily earns his Best Director award. (Review)
  • A Brighter Tomorrow, Moretti [CO§]: This self-reflexive story about a director struggling to finish his film felt less like a movie than an episode of Curb, with Moretti serving as the Larry David stand-in. The audience seemed to adore it, and I giggled a few times myself…but ultimately this was messy and forgettable. (Review)

DAY 9

  • All to Play For (Rien à Perdre), Deloget [UCR]: An empathetic film about a woman losing her son to the foster system; filled with rage at bureaucracy, like something Loach would make. This is a simple story, simply told, but that leaves room for some wonderfully naturalistic performances: Virginia Efira is a particular stand-out. (Review)
  • Perfect Days, Wenders [CO§]: Following a few days in the life of a public toilet cleaner in Shibuya, this is Wim’s Paterson—finding beauty in the everyday routine of life and lowering my blood pressure in the process. I loved this movie to pieces. (Review)
  • Last Summer, Breillat [CO§]: A drama about a woman who has an affair with her teenage stepson, Breillat’s first film in a decade feels surprisingly hollow: well shot and well acted, but to what end? This one really did nothing for me. (Review)
  • Cobweb, Kim [OOC§]: A star-studded movie about moviemaking which starts out hilarious and spends the next two hours beating every joke to death. More familiarity with the cast might have made me delight in the silliness; as is, it grew tiresome pretty quickly. (Review)

DAY 10

  • The Goldman Case, Kahn [DF]: A riveting courtroom drama which sustains dramatic tension exquisitely through dialogue alone. Meat-and-potatoes filmmaking at its finest; this is the resonant political movie Aaron Sorkin wishes he could make. (Review)
Hong Sang-soo giving a Q&A after a screening of In Our Day

  • In Our Day, Hong [DF§]: A series of conversations about life, careers, and growing old, this was very stripped down—which is to say, this was another Hong Sang-soo film. I love his delicate craft in general, and particularly resonated with the earnestness of this one. (Review)
  • La Chimera, Rohrwacher [CO§]: The story of a 1980s antiquities expert and his merry band of grave robbers, this film was in no hurry to let me in: formally immaculate yet chilly. Eventually, though, as its beating heart surfaced, it became one of my highlights of the festival. (Review)
  • The Old Oak, Loach [CO§]: A parable about the residents of a small North England village who learn to build community with a group of Syrian refugees, this thing was syrupy sweet and morally obvious even by Loach’s standards—with a message of “class solidarity” so blinding you could see it from space. Look, I’m not saying it didn’t make me cry; I’m saying the only qualities separating this from one of those cheesy Kevin Costner vehicles (wherein middle-aged white people learn to be incrementally less racist) are accents and geography. (Review)

DAY 11

  • About Dry Grasses, Ceylan [CO]: A sweeping, novelistic character study about a disillusioned school teacher living in rural Anatolia, this is very much a Nuri Bilge Ceylan movie: long philosophical conversations, beautiful landscape photography, a feeling of restless discontent. I love Ceylan and his continued shift towards (what seems like) a more personal mode of storytelling; there are grace notes here that have lingered with me for days. (Review)
The closing ceremony of the festival

  • A large break in the afternoon gave me time for one last run down the promenade, a leisurely lunch, a nap, and a little bit of packing. Then I threw on the tux for one final red carpet walk, to attend the festival’s closing ceremony. It was very cool getting to experience the awards announcements in person, as everyone from Quentin Tarantino to Orlando Bloom to Jane Fonda came on stage to pay tribute to the winners. For my money, the jury did a pretty great job this year: Most of my favorites were awarded in some capacity, even if the order didn’t always line up with my preferences. For comparison, check out my pre-ceremony predictions on Twitter.
  • Elemental, Sohn [OOC§]: An object lesson about diversity, a coming-of-age story, and a romance blended into one, this sees Pixar continuing where Turning Red left off—encouraging creators to tell personal stories and trusting that something universal will arise from the specifics. I fear that this may not connect with kids, but after two intense weeks of adult moviegoing I was happy to embrace my inner child in their place: this big-hearted, communal celebration made me cry. (Review)

Rankings

Combining In Competition and Out of Competition because, dammit, I want Scorsese included in this. 1-5 were excellent, 6-10 were great, 11-17 I’d still unreservedly recommend, 18-21 I still liked more than I didn’t, 22-26 no comment.

1: The Zone of Interest
2: Killers of the Flower Moon
3: Perfect Days
4: Anatomy of a Fall
5: About Dry Grasses
6: Monster
7: Occupied City
8: The Pot-Au-Feu
9: Asteroid City
10: La Chimera
11: Four Daughters
12: Club Zero
13: Elemental
14: May December
15: Fallen Leaves
16: Banel and Adama
17: Anselm
18: Homecoming
19: Firebrand
20: A Strange Way of Life
21: The Old Oak
22: A Brighter Tomorrow
23: Last Summer
24: Cobweb
25: Kidnapped
26: Black Flies

Plus, a few stray awards:

☆ Best performance in competition: Tie between Sandra Hüller, Anatomy of a Fall, and Koji Yakusho, Perfect Days
☆ Film in competition everyone loved which I largely didn’t “get”: Fallen Leaves
☆ Film in competition I’d strongly go to bat for despite many people hating it: Club Zero
☆ Best film of Un Certain Regard: Omen
☆ Best performance of Un Certain Regard: Virginia Efira, All to Play For
☆ Best film of Directors’ Fortnight: The Goldman Case
☆ Best performance of Directors’ Fortnight: Pierre Niney, The Book Of Solutions

Conclusion

That’s a wrap on this year’s update! As with every year, it’s been a chaotic festival and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Whereas previous years always ended with the hope in something better (from 3 Days to Cinephile, from Cinephile to Press), this time around I really think I’ve found a groove: I can sleep, eat, exercise, and still catch 3-4 films a day while only mildly losing my sanity. And although I’m sad to have missed Wang Bing’s (by all accounts piercing) documentary, there’s something liberating about it as well—absent the ability to be a completist, I feel like I was able to forge something better. If I attend Cannes next year, I’ll be able to do so in a sustainable way. And if I miss it, I won’t take it as a personal failure or a stand-in for Everything We’ve Lost.

After this latest trip, Cannes feels less like a lofty goal or object of conquest, and more like a curmudgeonly old friend. I love it, I hate it, I’m tired of it, I miss it, and I can tap into it whenever I need to be refilled. Whether we cross paths again next year or life gets in the way, its continued existence is a comfort to me: We’re still capable of tuning out the coughing, turning down the lights, and taking part in one collective, held breath.


  1. In 2018 I assumed all of Cannes would be like some prestigious, single track conference: sipping red wine and star-sighting over leisurely breaks between sanely scheduled screenings, each with guaranteed seats. If experience quickly dispelled that myth, I wasn’t ready to give it up entirely. Instead, I convinced myself that it existed only for members of the Press. If you’re a journalist reading this, don’t tell me the truth. The grass is always greener, etc.

  2. Yep, that one.

  3. Defined here as attending a premiere in the Grand Théâtre Lumière with the cast, crew, and paparazzi present. I don’t want to get into the weeds of “gala” vs “non-gala” screenings and which premieres technically allow for less formal attire—if it was after 3pm and at GTL, I was on the carpet in a bowtie.

Best Films of 2022

Cut to the chase: Just want to see the list of movies? No problem.

Previous write-ups: Check out the last eight end-of-year lists to get a sense of our similarities and differences.

Podcast: You can listen to my straightforward Top 10 list on The Spoiler Warning.

Introduction: Some Kind of Normal

I always like to start these by reflecting on the year, and in recent write-ups the pandemic has loomed large. 2020 was a tidal wave of collective emotion; 2021 was a kaleidoscope, a mass splintering. A unified global catastrophe crumbled into a thousand partial, personal threats—slipping on marbles, never quite confident in hope or cynicism.

2022 marked a “return to normal,” though as far as I can tell, our conditions haven’t changed. Last winter San Francisco was still 80% masked and treating “six feet apart” as a mandate; zero relevant breakthroughs later, the percentage is down to single digits. Having spent a year divided, it’s as if the world finally found one point of agreement—everyone was tired of swimming upstream. And so “normal” became a self-fulfilling prophecy, a sort of reverse prisoner’s dilemma. “There’s no point in trying if everyone else has given up,” we lamented in unison, satisfying our own condition.

As much as it gives me whiplash, I have no high horse to judge from. I feel the same paradoxical impulses, the same internal reversion to the mean. For an experiment which filled every groove of the human experience, the results are overwhelmingly consistent: Eventually, “normal” reasserts itself. Call it hypocritical, or selfish, or intentionally short-sighted (and I do, with some frequency depending on my mood). But empirically speaking, it’s human.

If “normal” was a tacit admission of defeat, it was also an opportunity. Whatever we were returning to, we were in it for the long haul, and with that perspective came a chance at redefinition. Long-lived conversations reemerged with new energy over what kind of society we ought to create. Topics which had once been relegated to academia are now uttered by late-night hosts, debated in book clubs, paid lip-service before elections (if then immediately discarded). Despite frustrating efforts to redirect that energy, I refuse to believe it will dissipate. We’ve all spent two years witnessing our own malleability. This won’t be the last time we break and reform.

The films of 2022 were infused with that malleable spirit. As I went through my annual preparation for this list—whittling down my favorites into 10 thematic pairs1—I was struck by just how many were intent on reinvention. Some took aim at the world around them: decrying complacency, jeering at hypocrisy, cheering on the crumbling of perverse, outdated structures. Others pointed inward, asking existential questions. What do we leave behind? What is the weight of human kindness? Every year a film or two will defy genre conventions, but this year’s favorites did so as a matter of habit, using every tool available to tear down or rebuild. If studios learn anything from 2022’s major success stories, that irreverence will be with us for a while.

As mentioned above, I won’t be ranking individual films2. There’s no shortage of wonderful critics who provide that service, and frankly, I find the exercise stressful—forcing me to focus on implied exclusions via an arbitrary number. What I love about this time of year is the chance it gives me to zoom out and find patterns, to explore why the things I loved spoke to me in the first place. For that, I’ve found pairing my favorites to be a more satisfying challenge; the scoring is still fuzzy, but more self-evidently so. (And hey, if your personal favorite didn’t make this list, just assume I’m not creative enough to have found a pairing for it! 3)

Counting down to my number one pairing of 2022:

Theatrical Bonus: Sacrificial Clowns – Top Gun: Maverick and Jackass Forever
10) The Myth of a Middle Ground – Emergency and Athena
9) Through a Keyhole – The Eternal Daughter and Saint Omer
8) Don’t Look Away – All the Beauty and the Bloodshed and Holy Spider
7) Immortalized in Light – Fire of Love and After Yang
6) Turning the Tables – RRR and The Woman King
5) Feeding the Void – The Menu and White Noise
4) The Monster Inside – Bones and All and We’re All Going to the World’s Fair
3) Confidence as Costume – TÁR and Resurrection
2) A Legacy for Whom? – The Banshees of Inisherin and BARDO, False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths
1) Clinging Through the Waves – Aftersun and Everything Everywhere All at Once

Theatrical Bonus: Sacrificial Clowns – Top Gun: Maverick and Jackass Forever

By late 2021 I was already dipping a toe back in theatres, but with caution came extreme selectivity. Theatres were a means to an end, an obstacle only to be endured for films I knew I wanted to see. The joy of the “experience” was never the point.

In 2022, that joy came roaring back to life. Armed with an N95 and a revised risk calculation, I opted for in-person screenings as a matter of habit. For the first time in two years, I saw the presence of an audience not as a threat, but a bonus.

This award is for the screenings which most exemplified that bonus: two big, silly, surprisingly endearing spectacles which used the energy of my neighbors as an essential ingredient. As if to prove just how powerful that ingredient was, both of these movies function as “legasequels,” trafficking in nostalgia for a thing I had no personal connection to. I absorbed the crowd’s nostalgia through osmosis.

What could I possibly say about Top Gun: Maverick that hasn’t been said a thousand times? I genuinely don’t know, and I don’t think it matters. If Maverick proves anything, it’s that novelty is overrated. Sometimes you just want the band to play the hits. Sometimes you want to forget about plot, character growth, and troubling geopolitical implications and just ride a roller coaster. Of course it’s running on a pre-ordained track; of course the loops won’t hurt you. But if you throw up your hands and surrender to physics, you’ll feel the adrenaline of actual danger. Tom Cruise pulling off a simulated mission will feel exactly as death-defying as the one with real stakes—it’s all the same forces with the same cheering crowd, it’s all just a matter of perspective. This is the sort of thrill ride you feel in your bones.

Jackass Forever is another movie you feel in your bones, and the primary feeling is pain. There’s a reason my wife didn’t join me in this screening; it’s the same reason I never in a million years thought I’d be putting it on a list. I am nothing like these people. I have never cared about their show. It physically hurts me to watch them! So why did I love it? The best answer I can give is “catharsis.” As we strangers gathered together in the theatre, crying out “OOOOOH” and “NOOOOO”s with the blunt repetition of a pogo stick, all that pain started to feel needed, somehow. A sharp release after two years of dull ache. Hilarious in the way the best nonsense is hilarious: hilarious that we were laughing, hilarious that at 11am on a Saturday in the midst of a still-raging pandemic we’d crawled out of our caves and put on shoes and pants to watch middle-aged men bruise for our amusement. It doesn’t make a lick of sense. It’s also the closest I’ve felt to a stranger in years.

10. The Myth of the Middle Ground – Emergency and Athena

The year that promised a “return to normal” begged the question: What is an acceptable definition of the term? In practice, it felt like a euphemism for apathy, containment. Sand down the edges, bridge every possible divide, satisfy all in equal measure via some muted “middle ground.” Which is to say, satisfy no one.

Two films remind us that for the fault lines that really matter, there is often no such thing as a middle ground. That knee-jerk impulse to appease or cater, it doesn’t bring you any closer in some imagined game of inches. By choosing to internalize two irreconcilable points of view, you only dilute your own ability to fight.

In Emergency, Kunle is striving for respectability, unobtrusiveness. A Nigerian American with Ivy ambitions, he doesn’t rock the boat in his white-dominated university; he keeps his head down and plays by the rules. Whereas his best friend, Sean, is convinced the only move is not to play: Nothing he does will change society’s perception of him as a young Black man in this country. At the start of the film they’re a classic odd couple. Kunle wants to study but Sean wants to drink. Kunle avoids confrontations in class, Sean actively courts them to squeamish effect. But when they come home to find an underage white girl unconscious in their living room, their competing theories of the world are rendered consequential, concrete. If Kunle is right, the social contract demands they contact the police. If Sean is right, that impulse could prove impossibly naive—and dangerous. Are they protagonists in a hijinks-filled raunch-com, or the soon-to-be-victims of a harrowing drama? Eventually, someone needs to choose.

The fault lines in Athena couldn’t be more apparent: There’s a physical barricade and two armed, opposing sides. A riot has broken out in the Parisian banlieue, following the murder of a 13-year-old Algerian boy at the (documented) hands of the police. On one side are the rioters, wielding bricks and Molotov cocktails, demanding that justice be served. On the other are the French police, decked head to toe in riot gear, insisting that order be maintained. In the film’s visual vocabulary, this is a war zone. Straddling both armies is Abdel, himself a resident of Athena, a literal soldier and the older brother of the deceased. He’s calling for peace and justice simultaneously. He wants to deescalate the tension, to translate each side to the other, to reason his way to an armistice. But there’s no way to diffuse a lit bomb while preserving its potency: You either neutralize its agency or you support its right to burst. Brimming with anger and raw kinetic energy, Athena is a sprint towards a reckoning.

9. Through a Keyhole – The Eternal Daughter and Saint Omer

You can never really know another person. David Foster Wallace likened the challenge of human connection to trying to squeeze the contents of a room through a keyhole4—that gnawing asymmetry between inside and outside, between the infinite complexity we feel and the shallow language we have to express it.

These films explore how that asymmetry manifests for those on either side. The difficulty of peering in, the loneliness of being trapped, and the mysterious way that push and pull becomes a proxy for self understanding.

Julie wants to understand her mother, Rosalind. It’s at once an act of love and a creative pursuit: Having already mined her own life as inspiration for her films5, the director now feels an urge to widen the aperture. The Eternal Daughter, which follows the mother and daughter’s extended stay at an old, secluded hotel, functions as a claustrophobic two-hander between Tilda Swinton and…Tilda Swinton. Julie (Tilda) is trying to get Rosalind (Tilda) to open up, preferably in the vicinity of a tape recorder. She coaxes out childhood reminiscences over wine and dinner; she peppers her with questions during afternoon strolls. But the closer she tries to pull Rosalind in, the more the energy seems to shift. Nostalgic memories veer into mourning. A birthday celebration turns unexpectedly tense. Even the hotel grounds feel uncertain, askew, thrumming with secrets that deliberately evade her. Why is it so hard to see each other clearly—even when they have seemingly everything in common, they both desperately want it, and they’ve blocked out the entire world to do so?

Rama doesn’t know Laurence Coly. If her testimony in Saint Omer is to be believed, few people have even noticed Coly since she immigrated from Senegal, let alone known her. But like Julie to her mother, Rama is driven by a creative impulse to try. Hers is less an attempt to connect than it is to solve a terrible puzzle. What would possess this thoughtful speaker, motivated student, and by all accounts loving mother to drown her infant daughter? Played with perfect restraint by Guslagie Malanda, Coly denies the charge of infanticide yet disputes few, if any, details. She walks through her life story patiently, methodically, not wholly devoid of emotion but miscalibrated somehow. It’s as if after years of feeling unseen, she’s forgotten how to reveal herself at all. Was it an act of desperation? Was she in any way coerced? Surely Rama—French-Senegalese herself, a novelist of tragedies, and four months pregnant at the time of this case—can find a “why” that reconciles the mother with her inconceivable actions. Without it, how can she quarantine the horror from her own life? How can any of us?

8. Don’t Look Away – All the Beauty and the Bloodshed and Holy Spider

In a world that lets us curate every conceivable input, there’s value in active discomfort. The best acts of protest intentionally trouble us, making us internalize a wrongness which would otherwise stay hidden.

These films are about people who refuse to sweep troubling truths under the rug. With stubborn perseverance, they insist on bearing witness until the world takes notice.

Nan Goldin, the subject of All the Beauty and the Bloodshed, has devoted her life to telling stories. Some of those stories are painful; some are provocative; some are glamorizing; some are a disquieting combination of all three. Her goal isn’t to moralize or synthesize, it’s simply to highlight. And for the first hour or so of the film, I have to say I was caught off guard by the approach. Here was a documentary ostensibly about modern day activism and the opioid epidemic, which was spending the bulk of its time depicting the New York club scene of the 70’s and 80’s—reminiscing about an era which seemed at best unrelated to the current crisis, at worst stylistically complicit. Like one of Goldin’s slideshows, the film contextualizes by way of overwhelming. It asks us to sit with the unease until, eventually, connections start to form: between addiction and feeling discarded, between one epidemic and another. What emerges is less a message than an argument by example: You cannot fight what you don’t understand, and you cannot protect by way of euphemism. The messy, unpleasant, often brutal realities of life are our most potent weapons against a power that thrives on contentment. Look at it, before you try to solve it. Look at it, and make it impossible for them to look away.

The fact that Holy Spider exists at all feels like an act of political protest. A Persian-language procedural which unfolds like a depraved Fincher saga, it puts moral rot on full display and dares us to blink. The most brazen examples come from Saeed, a serial killer who preys on sex workers in the holy city of Mashhad. We open on one of his soon-to-be victims, and we follow until she is no longer living. Nothing, and I mean nothing, is left to the imagination. Saeed’s horrific crimes are being investigated by Arezoo6, a journalist who has taken an interest in the case. As she works to identify the killer, she is confronted with more pervasive sort of evil: No one seems particularly interested in catching him. Oh they decry murder in the abstract, of course. Police, politicians, and religious officials have no shortage of platitudes to give on that point. But to investigate with passion would require caring about the victims, and there it seems Arezoo stands alone. Released at a time when the women of Iran are courageously demanding equality, Holy Spider resounds with present-tense conviction. As with the powers Nan Goldin lobbied, lip service is cheap. Your character is revealed by those you actively protect, those you actively choose to see.

7. Immortalized in Light – Fire of Love and After Yang

“Actively” is the operative word above. Multiple entries on this list touch on the idea of attention as currency. Choosing to direct it towards unpleasant truths. Resisting the impulse to spread it translucent. Focus as a catalyst for action.

These two films are about the value of focus on its own terms. They argue that our curiosity, our passion, the specific way we and only we see the world is a vital artifact.

Katia and Maurice Krafft love volcanoes. And I can think of no greater compliment than to say that watching Fire of Love made me love them too. Though the documentary includes multiple interviews with the volcanologist couple, its power doesn’t lie in their—or any—words. Rather, it lies in what they saw and preserved. Namely: gorgeous, terrifying, mesmeric footage of volcanoes in the act of erupting. Tiny silhouettes in heat-resistant silver, dwarfed against a skyscraper of magma. Smoke billowing like the fury of some vengeful Greek god. A color palette which has always existed—which is intricately tied with the creation of our world—yet somehow feels futuristic, alien whenever it’s on screen. It’s breathtaking, and at least to this viewer, an entirely novel sensation. By relentlessly pursuing their unorthodox obsessions, the Kraffts accomplished what so many artists aim to do. They made us see the world through their eyes, and see it as glorious.

In After Yang, the process is even more direct: We literally see the world through Yang’s eyes. When the titular robot becomes unresponsive, his (human) family is left in a state of muted grief. They can talk about solutions (to fix or to replace?) but their sorrow seems to linger on the tip of their tongue. By and large, the film follows their emotional lead: delicate, tentative, lush but only to a point, hovering just on the periphery of heartbreak. All of that changes when, for reasons I won’t spoil, we’re granted access to Yang’s memories. Or rather to his attention—a few seconds per day which Yang deemed worthy of preserving. As we cycle through disconnected fragments of memory, every previously-muted emotion hits with full force. It’s a moving experience, and its meaning has continued to gnaw at me after multiple viewings. Beyond language and rationalization, the most profound mark we leave behind might be the world as we remix it, the particular parts we choose to edit down. Whether a bubbling pool of magma or the perfect cup of tea, we construct the found art of our lives. We forage for beauty and compare notes.

6. Turning the Tables – RRR and The Woman King

As we continue to compare notes, one conclusion is inescapable: None of this is remotely fair, or right. Despite frustrating reversions in the name of #10’s “middle,” there is still a growing sense that the fundamentals of our society need to change: who makes the decisions, and who benefits.

There’s a time to forage and a time to hunt. These films are about heroes who see the world they live in and dare to imagine something better, forcibly flipping the script.

In my Theatrical Bonus, I highlighted two theatrical experiences in which the energy of the audience played a crucial ingredient. But I neglected to mention my single favorite example: a sold out, Tuesday night screening of RRR. Everything you’ve heard about the Tollywood epic is accurate and hyperbole-free. It’s riveting, propulsive, silly and enormous, bursting at the seams with so much inventive spectacle it makes the best MCU movies look like…well, like the other 26 MCU movies. I won’t try to thoughtfully articulate the plot, because A) I lack the context7 and B) it’s not the point. But this is an action film named (among other things) “Rise Roar Revolt”, and for all its over-the-top aspects, I felt a real jolt of revolutionary energy. Blockbusters tend to either explicitly root for, or limply apologize for, conventional power structures. It’s refreshing to leave one viscerally wanting to burn them to the ground.

If RRR is a comic book retelling of known revolutionary history, The Woman King is a reimagining of the revolutions that could have been. It’s also an act of historical revelation. The film centers around the Agojie, an all-woman warrior unit who served the 19th century Kingdom of Dahomey in what is now (primarily) Benin. If this is your first time learning that an entirely woman-led fighting force not only existed, but existed for centuries, you aren’t alone: Beyond the bloody action sequences, the film’s most thrilling aspect might be that sense of discovery, excavation. Having established their well-recorded prowess in battle, the film turns its attention to possible points of inflection. What if the Agojie had been allowed to lead, rather than merely serve the King? What if the Kingdom wielded the brunt of its power against the encroaching Portuguese, against the slave trade itself? There are real stories, here, stochastic acts of revolution and revolt that are accumulated into one potent charge. Some view that as revisionistic; I view it as a battle cry. This is what the world could be. It only takes a spark.

5. Feeding the Void – The Menu and White Noise

If change is thrilling, it’s also destabilizing. There’s a narcotizing calm that comes with being carried by the status quo. When the foundation disappears, we reach for others to replace it: an audience to perform to, a consensus to nestle within.

These films are about the emptiness inherent to those substitute foundations. Scathing and empathetic in equal measure, they both mock and indulge our inconsistencies.

Given the title, you might assume the comfort The Menu is skewering is food. And it is, in a sense—a horror film set at a world-renowned restaurant whose progressive tasting menu grows more violent by the course, it has plenty to say about elitism and dining. But the deepest targets of its ire have nothing to do with eating and everything to do with performance. It’s the Instagram story of the perfectly plated meal, the hallowed Authentic Experience™ fetishized to a commodity. Paying a premium for the bragging right of eating food you likely hate; exclusive membership to a club, password “mouthfeel.” It’s about the way wealth and the pursuit of status hollow you out, strip everything of enjoyment including the act of enjoying something. Like the best satirical comedies, The Menu knows how to execute on precisely what it’s criticizing. It knows how to be highbrow, how to sprinkle in a grace note or witheringly specific dig8, how to be precisely the sort of film this snooty armchair critic would adore. But it also knows how to please a crowd; when to sacrifice the technically perfect choice for the more immediately satisfying moment. A ten course tasting menu that isn’t afraid to be cheeseburger, it’s less an argument against indulgence than it is against self-defeating posturing. Whatever vapid thing you gorge yourself on, it had better at least be filling.

White Noise is based on a major work of postmodern literature; there’s a chance it was assigned to you in college. Yet, perhaps more than any entry on this list, it reads like a critique of our particular decade. Culture has become fragmented and hyper-specific. A rising interest in the study of Hitler is paired with renewed enthusiasm for Elvis Presley. A massive Airborne Toxic Event causes widespread panic, exposing a subset of the population to a deadly toxin which, rather than act immediately and dramatically, has a statistical, long term impact on morbidity. Certainties are hard to tease out, and misinformation (“She’s having outdated symptoms!”) fills the vacuum. What does the population do when faced with their mortality? They play act, retreat to some semblance of normal. Same bleach white grocery stores proffering comforting brands, same navel-gazing lectures met with roaring applause. The world has split open but their lives remain the same—and if that facade is depressing, it’s also uniquely, laughably human. In the postmodern tradition, White Noise plays like a joyous contradiction. Like The Menu, it knows when to finger wag and when to appease, when to cut the intellectualizing and dance.

4. The Monster Inside – Bones and All and We’re All Going to the World’s Fair

Despite every genuine attempt and higher-order certainty, we remain imperfect people with imperfect desires. So much of growing up is about coming to terms with that imperfection—shaping it, accepting it, fashioning keyhole-sized labels. It’s a lonely, often terrifying process.

These stories explore that loneliness, that fear. They’re about the negotiations inherent in coming to terms with yourself, struggling to stay hidden while desperate to be seen.

It’s tempting to read Bones and All purely as an allegory. Certainly, it has the raw materials. The queer-coded coming-of-age drama follows young cannibals living in Reagan-era America, whose desires thrust them to the fringes of society. Marked as definitionally “dangerous,” they’re left with no choice but to forge new ways of being. All the beauty, all the bloodshed. What I adore about this film, though, is its refusal to map neatly onto one didactic point. Drown out the social context and consider Maren and Lee on their own terms. They have this passion, this intensity of want they can’t control. It doesn’t just seem dangerous because it violates the social order; it is (in defiance of metaphor) a genuinely violent compulsion, a need to draw blood. They’ve hurt people in the past, and they’re likely to hurt again. Rather than ask us to fully fear them or forgive them, the film simply asks us to feel them. The dull ache of desire and the threat of its fulfillment. The self-loathing that comes after; if only you were stronger. How painful it must be to be at war with yourself. How freeing to lie back in the passenger seat, to peel off the armor, to share in the whole bloody mess. The text of the film is part horror, part tragedy, but the texture is pure romance. It’s love and sex and yearning and danger and self-hatred and -actualization, melded into one intractable feeling. It says “Take me, all of me, exactly as I am.”

If Maren and Lee find belonging in the open road, Casey is searching for it in an endless, scrolling feed. By the time we meet the protagonist of We’re All Going to the World’s Fair, she’s already formed a truce with her demons. She knows that she’s hurting and she doesn’t expect it to stop. What she wants is to make it be important. To find some audience to connect her pain to something bigger, who can rescue her from the oppressiveness of her isolated teenage life. What they witness is unsettling; I won’t spoil it here. But beyond this film’s horror trappings lies what might be the most perceptive look at modern adolescence since Eighth Grade. Like Kayla and her YouTube channel—like the John Darnielle characters who hunt for meaning in mail-in RPGs and cryptic video returns—Casey is sending out a flare. I exist, and I am terrifying. Scrutinize my wrongnesses in Guadagnino close-up; scrub through every frame, uncover every clue. Notice me and all my gnarled edges.

3. Confidence as Costume – TÁR and Resurrection

We forge an identity out of the raw materials we’re given, weave them into one consistent narrative. Soften things, curate for the keyhole. One danger of an echo chamber, then, is the flattening of self: the way it iteratively reflects our simplified narrative until it replaces the genuine artifact.

Our cultivated personalities can’t bear the weight of a disaster. These films depict a house of cards collapsing.

Lydia Tár is nobody’s victim. An accomplished conductor, composer, author, and public intellectual, she seems wholly in control of every facet of her life. After all, she fashioned it herself. TÁR is likewise a meticulous construction. In terms of pure craft, I consider it the most flawless entry on my list. The same, however, cannot be said for its namesake. In one early impromptu lecture, we’re given a glimpse of her contradictions. She’s engaging, dynamic, passionate, persuasive, and also patently, toxically wrong. Her arrogance is unwavering and all-consuming. It will take no small force to uproot it. But piece by piece, with virtuosic precision, the film guides us through the movements that will do so. It first asks us to see the world from her eyes, to be hypnotized by her self mythology. Thus calibrated, we—like Lydia—are primed to perceive whatever threatens her position as a mysterious (even supernatural) threat. What else can kill a god, can take down nobody’s victim? The result is slowly unfurling nightmare.

The nightmare in Resurrection is decidedly more literal. Margaret’s tormentor is no hazy manifestation of some inevitable future reckoning. He’s a flesh-and-blood man sitting on a park bench in broad daylight, sharpened canines puncturing a cruel and feral smile. Outwardly, Margaret exists as the epitome of confidence: the high-powered executive who plays her boardroom like a fiddle; the single mother who champions self-sufficiency to a fault. But now he’s clawed his way back from the past to the park bench, and brought with him a host of anxieties. If this sounds like the plot of a demented horror flick—and, spoilers, it absolutely is—it’s also a riveting drama. Over the course of a monologue of Bergman proportions, we watch Margaret peel back every carefully-constructed layer. Her unraveling is too massive to be pigeonholed by genre: She, and the film, defy everything. It’s unnerving to witness someone tear so much away. I have no clue what to make of it; it still lives inside me.

2. A Legacy for Whom? – The Banshees of Inisherin and BARDO, False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths

Multiple entries on this list explore what we leave behind. Some luxuriate in it, others spiral into existential crises over it. But a question remains: For whom do we tailor it? Who is it that ultimately matters?

These are stories about art, legacy, and inevitable trade-offs. Confronted with their own mortality, their middle-aged protagonists know they want to leave a mark. They just can’t seem to settle on an audience.

Everyone on Inisherin seems to have a different answer. Pádraic is at peace with the smallness of his life and sees contentment as the ultimate aim. The people he loves are his legacy. His sister Siobhán wants to expand her horizons: She hasn’t seen enough of the world to know whom to live for. Then there’s Colm, whose existential crisis serves as The Banshees of Inisherin’s narrative fulcrum. Colm is fine with smallness, with a narrow field of influence. He has no desire to leave the confines of his home. What he can’t stand is that which Pádraic most values: impermanence. Evening pints with buddies, hours in the company of animals, unsung opportunities for kindness. They’re special precisely because they’re intimate, fleeting. But music—music is eternal. Dwarfed by the infinite, Colm’s day-to-day relationships seem like petty distractions. He doesn’t want to be cruel, exactly, but what is the weight of kindness when stacked up against eternal pursuits? If all the kindness of a lifetime were hurled against a door, would it make a sound worth studying like Mozart? A pitch black comedy about the human condition, Banshees refuses to offer up a villain or an answer.

In BARDO, False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths, the argument isn’t divvied up between a roving cast of townspeople: Silverio embodies every side at once. The immediacy of family, the permanence of art, the security of a hometown, the tug of new horizons. To further his directorial ambitions, the thinly-veiled Iñáritu surrogate left Mexico City for Los Angeles early in his career. And on paper, the gambit paid off: He is critically acclaimed, his films are widely seen, and his family still lives under one roof. But now, as he prepares a speech for a ceremony held in his honor, he questions every decision. He moved to California to make his art more accessible, but by leaving the city that forged him, has he diluted his own perspective? Is it onanistic to strive for purity, or is it “selling out” to cater to your audience? And who is this audience anyway—pretentious snobs on one extreme, blood-hungry mob on the other. He still knows how to dazzle them, but to what end? Iñáritu still knows how to dazzle us too. Framing Silverio’s inner turmoil as a series of Fellini-esque flights of fancy, his self-critique is nothing if not wildly entertaining. Critics have called it indulgent, but I was bowled over by BARDO’s towering self-awareness9. If only doubt were always this majestic.

1. Clinging Through the Waves: Aftersun and Everything Everywhere All at Once

Which leads me to the final theme, of this and so many of my lists. It’s the obvious truth that somehow never fails to surprise me, what Colm has rationalized himself out of and Lee and Maren are searching for. The importance of human connection. We cling to each other through uncertain times as a balm against the emptiness that threatens to hollow us, the white noise that drowns out all meaning.

These films are about a desperate sort of clutch. One hurting person saying to another “I don’t know what to do any more than you do. But in this moment, let me tether you.” Solace, not through certain answers, but a willingness to reiterate simple questions. Why can’t we just be kind? Why can’t we give love one more chance?

Immediately after leaving my screening of Aftersun, I knew it would land in my number one slot10. If you’ve seen it, I’m sure you can conjure the exact sequence I’m alluding to with the title of this pairing. It’s the emotional climax, the musical moment of the year, the coda to a dance we’ve spent the entire runtime watching. Participants may rotate, but the motion remains the same: Sophie to Calum, Calum to Sophie, camera to subject, present to past. One reaches, the other falls. We’re given hints of a story beyond their vacation, and so much emphasis is placed on deciphering it (our review included). But that fundamental feeling of grasping, of pulling—remove every bit of context and it lingers just the same. It permeates their smallest interactions: hidden looks, wordless gestures, half smiles flickering like a neon OPEN. It also permeates those moments when no one is in frame; paragliders overhead, waves lapping and receding. To find a film which carries such a consistent emotional current—it’s such a rare and wonderful treasure. Aftersun refuses to let me go.

If Aftersun is my personal favorite of the year, Everything Everywhere All at Once is the film which best encapsulates the year. Watching this frenetic multiverse saga feels like living through 2022: overwhelming, oversaturated, tugged in too many directions to move. Evelyn feels it; so does Joy. That temptation to be rendered numb by the enormity of everything, to be swept up in the riptide of Casey’s endless scroll—it is so, so strong. Which is why we’re lucky to find people who grab on, who pull, who insist upon meaning despite a wave of convincing arguments to the contrary. What I love about Everything Everywhere is that it has no desire to make sense. It knows that to limit ourselves to rationality is to lay down our greatest weapon in the fight: our uncanny ability to hope against reason. Particularly when we’re hoping on someone else’s behalf. What we lack in the first person we give doubly in the second, life rafts anchoring life rafts, conjuring solid ground from scratch.

This is the gift we give each other: insisting that we matter. Reiterating us to us. We become each other’s legacies. We remember, we edit, we elevate, we gel. We bear witness to each other’s innermost monsters; we project them on a canvas, alchemize them into art. That proverbial tree that’s falling, of course its impact makes a sound. It’s surrounded; it’s a forest. Whether we cling through a thousand parallel lifetimes or exceed each other’s grasp, the bassline thrums. We’re a web of interconnected witnesses, studying, reverberating one another—and as long as stories are being told, we won’t be fully lost.

Here’s to one more year of stories.

Closing Bits

This site used to be a repository of my weekly film reviews, but in recent years my output has waned. Nowadays these Best-Of recaps have been pretty much it. Maybe my schedule has gotten the better of me, or maybe my bar for what should exist on my “permanent record” has simply gotten higher. Either way, I’m at peace with it!

But that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped watching movies or sharing candid thoughts. The Spoiler Warning Podcast is alive and well. Travel and sickness left the past year a bit more chaotic than usual, but we’re hoping to return to a weekly cadence soon. And while I don’t always include a review, I do log every film I see on Letterboxd. Much of the last year was spent filling in some 150+ blind spots from the 1960s and 1970s. In addition to exposing me to a shocking number of masterpieces, this also did eat into my contemporary film viewing—down from my typical ~120 to a meager 84. I’d make the same trade in a heartbeat.

Aside from my own hobbies, I’d like to use this space to highlight some amazing work being done elsewhere. On the podcast front, I’m a devout listener of Filmspotting, Fighting in the War Room, The Filmcast, and Blank Check. If you don’t listen, you’re seriously missing out. As someone who only manages to do this once a year, I’m continually in awe of folks who write movingly about film at a professional level: Walter Chaw, Marya E. Gates, and Robert Daniels are sources of weekly inspiration for me, and well worth your attention. In terms of broader cultural commentary, there may be no more eloquent voice on the planet than Emily St. James—wherever she lands next, I suggest you pay attention. Finally, I’d urge you to check out Akoroko, a new media initiative built to spotlight African cinema. I’m proud to support their work, and encourage anyone who is passionate about widening the field of view of film discourse to do the same.

See you in 2024!


  1. Here’s The Process™.
    Step 1: Jot down my favorite ~30 films in a formula-heavy Google Spreadsheet.
    Step 2: Score them based on personal preference as well as their ranking on my previously-established Top 10.
    Step 3: Generate 50-60 candidate pairs along with a one sentence description of what binds them, until every film from Step 1 has multiple points of entry on this list.
    Step 4: Sort those pairings based on a weighted combination of the scores in Step 2.
    Step 5: Throw those scores out the window and spend untold hours agonizing about every possible trade-off, until eventually it’s February, damn it, and I just have to suck it up and write.

  2. If I had to rank these as a Top 20…which I’m not, and you can’t make me…it would probably look something like:
    1. Aftersun
    2. Everything Everywhere All at Once
    3. The Banshees of Inisherin
    4. TÁR
    5. RRR
    6. BARDO, False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths
    7. The Menu
    8. We’re All Going to the World’s Fair
    9. Bones and All
    10. Resurrection
    11. Fire of Love
    12. After Yang
    13. The Woman King
    14. White Noise
    15. All the Beauty and the Bloodshed
    16. The Eternal Daughter
    17. Saint Omer
    18. Holy Spider
    19. Emergency
    20. Athena

    But then what about the missing ones? Pinocchio! Marcel The Shell With Shoes On! Descendant! Cha Cha Real Smooth! This is why I don’t do Top 20 lists.

  3. Except Triangle of Sadness, which would have paired wonderfully with The Menu had I not loathed it.

  4. “You already know the difference between the size and speed of everything that flashes through you and the tiny inadequate bit of it all you can ever let anyone know. As though inside you is this enormous room full of what seems like everything in the whole universe at one time or another and yet the only parts that get out have to somehow squeeze out through one of those tiny keyholes you see under the knob in older doors. As if we are all trying to see each other through these tiny keyholes.” – David Foster Wallace, “Good Old Neon.”

  5. I know, I know, this isn’t explicitly a sequel to The Souvenir and The Souvenir Part 2. But it’s impossible for me to separate that Julie from this one, especially when the same actress plays her mother in all three films.

  6. Zar Amir Ebrahimi, incredible here and even better in recent Sundance winner Shayda. She is a serious force to be reckoned with.

  7. Far smarter people than I have written about RRR as a piece of nationalistic propaganda, a flawed retelling of history, etc. I have nothing to add to that conversation, except to say that my untrained eye interpreted every historical figure in this movie as a fictional superhero or villain, with Western Imperialism serving as the only real-world character. That guy deserves all the beatings he can get.

  8. Three words: take-home granola.

  9. In a year that offered no shortage of films that saw the director turn the camera inward, I found BARDO to be the most entertaining on its surface and the most brutally honest, incisive. More inventive than The Fabelmans (which I very much liked), more damning than Armageddon Time (which I felt conflicted about). This is, to be clear, not a popular opinion.

  10. To see just how easy a mark I am, consider a few of my previous number one picks: C’mon C’mon (2021), Honey Boy (2019), Eighth Grade (2018), American Honey (2017). Naturalistic independent dramas about growing up never fail to destroy me, particularly when there’s a fraught adult/child relationship at the center. This is, however, the first year my emotional Achilles heel has intersected with a broader critical consensus. Broken clock twice a day, etc.

Wordle: Play Both Versions of February 15th

As many confused friend groups have likely discovered, Wordle had a bit of a glitch today. It seems that when The New York Times took ownership of the game, they removed at least one word that was likely to frustrate users. However, due to the nature of caching and redirects, this change did not roll out to everyone simultaneously. Namely: If you already had your tab open to the old Wordle URL, and nothing caused your browser to auto-refresh over the last few days, you probably got the “frustrating” word. If you refreshed for any reason, you probably got the “easier” updated one.

I was curious to get an answer as to how this happened, and to let completists get a chance to play both. So I cloned the cached version of the Wordle game code from before the New York Times migration. To ensure that no one mistakes this for the real Wordle, I’ve removed all correct answers beyond today’s (a rather chaotic thing to do without spoiling future games for myself, involving a lot of find-and-replace, eye crossing, squinting, etc…). These game clones will forever be stuck in the two February 15th universes, and are in no way meant to replace the original: I am not in the business of stealing traffic.

Here is the original (“frustrating”) February 15th game.

And here is an updated version with the NYT-approved (“easier”) word.

Now you can settle this amongst your friends: who had the harder word?

Note: Your statistics are tied to site-specific data stored locally on your device. That means playing this won’t modify your actual Wordle stats.

Fun fact: For those who still haven’t refreshed by tomorrow, their February 16th word will actually be the NYT-approved February 15th word most folks got today. So prepare for another wave of confusion!

Best Films of 2021

More ramblings: Check out my previous end-of-year lists to get a sense of my taste in movies.

Podcast: You can listen to my flat Top 10 list on The Spoiler Warning.

[02/09/2022 Update]: Since writing this, I’ve been fortunate enough to catch up with Red Rocket and Drive My Car, both of which would have landed quite high on this list.

Introduction

“Ill-defined.”

I’ve been struggling to find a phrase to summarize the year, and this is the best I could conjure. If 2020 was synonymous with shared catastrophe, 2021 was a period when everything splintered. There were, of course, the usual bifurcations. Ask a San Francisco leftist and an Orange County libertarian to sum up their experience, and you’re bound to get conflicting feedback. A hypochondriac software engineer and their high-school-teaching neighbor probably won’t fare much better (though they’re markedly less likely to throw punches). The splintering I’m referring to, though, wasn’t a fracture of the body so much as a mass induced mitosis. Left to our own devices after a year of top-down panic, we fashioned for ourselves a thousand inconsistent 2021s. Or at least, that’s how this lefty hypochondriac felt.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. It was a year of continued lockdown, of days stuck indoors, nursing a when-will-this-shit-end malaise. It was a year of liberation, of rapturous happy hours and outdoor gourmandizing and cross-country trips that felt intergalactic, unreal. It was a year of lingering trauma, of a death toll rising with no end in sight and a populace that lost the will to track it. It was a year of immense personal joys: reunited families, a successful acquisition, multiple weddings (one of which was mine!). It was a sinusoidal cycle of hopes and reversals: bold political promises with less-than-half-assed executions, vaccines and variants, boosters and waves. I spent New Years Eve on the dance floor of a ship in the Antarctic, celebrating our ephemeral togetherness on an empty, melting continent while “Omicron Surges!” buzzed in my pocket and Lou Reed doo-do-dooed us down to midnight under a half-setting sun. It was unspeakably beautiful, but it was so many things.

This was a strange year to be alive and a strange year to be a moviegoer. Anticipated release dates ebbed and flowed without warning; festivals remained strictly virtual till the moment they didn’t. Where once there’d been a definitive, united sense of loss, now each loss was a matter of personal discretion. I would only book a ticket if the theatre was nearly empty. Or rather, if case rates were sufficiently low. No, I would ignore case rates if I had an N95 and refused to buy a drink. Scratch that, I would order a full dinner and eat it at my seat but only if no other patron was within 3 seats of—you get the idea. By and large, I avoided physical screenings as much as possible. Of the 117 new releases I saw this year, only 9 were in a theatre.1 My list of unseen films feels longer than ever, including a slew of December heavy-hitters that only screened theatrically and which I’d deemed too risky to seek out.2 To a spoiled film fanatic living in a major U.S. city, there’s a real cognitive dissonance in tallying just how many I missed.

But if the year was confusing, it was also deceptively strong. Sitting on my flight home shortly after New Years, I couldn’t conceive of scrounging together a Top 10…at least not without enduring a brutal iTunes marathon first. Three days and zero marathons later, I was staring at a shortlist of some 30 titles, wondering how to whittle it down for the evening’s recording session. As I sacrificed darling after darling to the gods of the decimal system, I knew my future write-up was doomed. Not ten films, no, not even ten pairs. A dozen pairs, maybe, if I was willing to be ruthless. I settled on ruthless.

Befitting an “ill-defined” year, there’s no overriding ethos that describes this list. There are crushing dramas and raunchy comedies, major contenders and tiny festival finds, heart-on-your-sleeve indies and musical Turduckens and some that shape-shifted genres with each passing scene. As usual, casualties3 abound and the ranking4 is fuzzy—this is a celebration of good things, not a critique by omission. So let’s make like a thermal graph of the Ross Ice Shelf and dance. Here are my Top 12 Movie Pairings of 2021:

12) Found Families: Language Lessons and Bad Trip
11) Truncated Adolescences: Slalom and The Fallout
10) Tense Gatherings: Spencer and The Humans
9) Deafening Monologues: Bo Burnham: Inside and Tick, Tick…BOOM!
8) Lowering Guardrails: Compartment No. 6 and Licorice Pizza
7) Unmet Expectations: The Lost Daughter and Bergman Island
6) Shifting Convictions: The Green Knight and Judas and the Black Messiah
5) Unforgivable Histories: Mass and The Card Counter
4) Clarifying Crises: Test Pattern and Întregalde
3) Personified Abstractions: Flee and Identifying Features
2) Toxic Defenses: The Power of the Dog and The Killing of Two Lovers
1) Present-Tense Memories: C’mon C’mon and Pig

12. Found Families: Language Lessons and Bad Trip

Everything got a bit fuzzier last year, including isolation. Hard-and-fast rules were replaced by an ever-shifting calculus: outdoor only, no more than 2 at a time, a drive but not a flight away, a flight but not a layover. Microweddings, park reunions, cocktails on the roof. With each event carrying some (manageable) risk, the people we opted to share them with became more precious, somehow. Ad hoc, chosen families.

These are stories about choosing other people. They’re love letters to platonic friendships and the chaotic events that rarify them.

Friendship can flourish in the most unexpected places. In Language Lessons, that place is a video chat. Cariño is a Spanish language teacher based in Costa Rica; Adam lives in Oakland with his wealthy, doting husband, who has gifted him a hundred Spanish lessons. What follows is a charming, minimalist drama about human connection. Adam and Cariño’s relationship is defined by limitation: they have never met in person, know nothing of each other’s histories, and the former’s Spanish vocab is childlike at best. Far from being a hindrance, though, those limits only deepen their connection. Truth by way of brevity. There’s a soulful undercurrent to their early lessons together, the way they fumblingly reveal themselves despite their best intentions. We can feel something personal wriggling to break free, made all the more lovely by the struggle.

Bad Trip might strike some as an odd inclusion on this list. A hidden camera prank show wrapped in a zany road trip comedy, it’s about as far removed from “minimalist drama” as you can get. On multiple levels, though, this is an earnest ode to companionship and shared…well, let’s just say experiences. Strip away the hilariously R-rated set-pieces and nonsensical plot machinations, and you’re left with a surprisingly sweet saga about two best friends. But it’s the meta story that really pulled me in. There’s something genuinely communal about watching this: It made me feel present with the cast unlike anything else this year. With its anarchic swerving between reality and fiction, Bad Trip implicates the viewer in every manic escalation and dear-god-don’t-tell-me-they’re-gonna twist. It has the cadence of a joke you had to be there to find funny, and a heart that’s big and silly enough to bring us along for the ride.

11. Truncated Adolescences: Slalom and The Fallout

Despite the popular refrain, nothing actually paused for the pandemic. The days continue to pass, even if they seem to blur together. So I can’t imagine how it would feel to be a teenager in this moment, for whom there can be no illusion of frozen time, no nebulous future “do-over.” To be consciously growing in a world that’s forced to stand still, to come of age in an era defined by acute limitations—it’s an unfathomable, collective loss.

Nothing I’ve seen this year has addressed that (suddenly universal) experience, but two intimate dramas did deal with the profound sadness of truncated youth. They’re about the way that trauma can accelerate or stunt the adolescent experience, and the resilience of those who survive it.

[CW: sexual assault, violence against minors]

Slalom is centered on the perspective of Lyz, a 15-year-old athlete who spends her days training at a remote, Alpine ski academy. She’s independent, motivated, and—under the tutelage of her adult instructor Fred—seems to be on track for greatness. That sort of internal striving can be its own overwhelming pressure, and Fred amplifies that pressure at every opportunity. But what seems at first blush to be a wintry spin on Whiplash5, instead becomes something darker. Presented to us with harrowing directness, hers is a story of sexual abuse at the hands of a man tasked with supporting her. Thrust into a queasy imitation of adulthood, Lyz attempts to compartmentalize her personal trauma and “professional life.” She’s convinced that the only thing to do is move forward. It’s a shockingly understated, naturalistic depiction, made all the more heartbreaking by her initially muted response. Power structures built on secrecy and trust can condition us to accept the inexcusable. Eventually, the curtain has to fall.

The Fallout takes a similarly naturalistic tact in its portrait of a different form of trauma. Vada is an eminently clever junior in high school, whose world is undone by a mass shooting at school. Or at least, her family presumes it’s been undone. After coming down from an initial state of shock, what’s most concerning is just how little she’s changed. She has the same deprecating humor, the same easygoing charm, same self-fulfilling insistence that everything is fine. Like Lyz, her instinctive coping strategy is a fake-it-till-you-make-it brand of strength: accept the situation and keep moving. But while her classmates are divided between putting tragedy in the rear-view and channeling their outrage into activism, Vada’s keep-moving intentions leave her firmly stuck in place. She can’t make forward motion until she’s acknowledged that she’s hurting, but to acknowledge it would shatter the only protective tool she has. What I adore about this film is Vada’s beating heart at its center: a cocktail of irony and sincerity, energy and stasis, which feels remarkably true to this moment. Through her struggle to modulate her outlook while retaining that vulnerable core, we see a glimmer of the adult she’s poised to become. If she’s any indication, we have reason to be hopeful.

10. Tense Gatherings: Spencer and The Humans

It was a year of reunions, for better or worse. While everyone I know has a perfectly frictionless relationship with their family6, I..ehrm…imagine this may not always be the case. I mean, it stands to reason that someone, somewhere, must have felt a wisp of discomfort when (after a full year of neatly-delineated Zoom calls) they found themselves sitting shoulder to shoulder around a dining room table, swapping the same stale air and recycled talking points, trying to improvise pleasant conversation while a politicized virus exacerbated existing divides in a meteorologically manic, legislatively impotent country where a full third of the voting population can’t even agree on the legitimacy of an audited election let alone a multi-decade strategy for curbing CO₂ and how the hell did we make eye contact with an entire group at—

Where was I?

These films explore the pressure of a tense holiday gathering: festering conflicts, dredged up histories, and the external stressors they so often conjure by proxy. Both set in creaky, haunting places, they serve as literal manifestations of a claustrophobic mind.

In Spencer, Princess Diana is dealing with a host of pressures. There’s the overbearing family that police her every move, the vulture-like prowling of the British tabloid press, and the emotionally frigid husband who only makes both matters worse. Over a three-day Christmas visit to their royal estate, she is physically and emotionally trapped. Forced to dress lavishly but never provocatively, to eat indulgently as performance (despite her struggles with food), to pantomime “transparency” without showing a modicum of pain. Hers is a haunted house within a haunted house. She’s holed up in a mansion whose curtains are literally sewn shut, and she can’t escape the confines of her head—an inner voice (and outer Anne Boleyn) that insists her plight is preordained. When she finally does break free of both in service to a miracle, it’s a shared release of tension unlike any I’ve seen this year.

No paparazzi are spying on the family in The Humans. But as they celebrate Thanksgiving in their daughter’s Chinatown apartment, it’s hard not to feel that same whiff of performance. They are happy to be together; happy to meet the new boyfriend; happy to finally catch up on one another’s lives. When it comes time to communicate, though, everything is strained. Their conversations hit all the usual nerves: political fissures, jabs about finances, closed-minded quips that land with a thud. There are other nerves, too, unspoken relational wounds they seemingly can’t help but pick at. Here, the haunted house aspect is rendered surprisingly literal. Unplaceable noises, flickering lights, clumps of paint and water damage which appear metastatic, looming. The apartment functions both as a symbol of their discomfort and as an active, taunting participant: luring different pairs away from the group, lulling them into a false sense of security, betraying them with its lurches and paper-thin walls.

9. Deafening Monologues: Bo Burnham: Inside and Tick, Tick…BOOM

It doesn’t take a group to conjure emotional claustrophobia. Some of us are perfectly capable of doing it on our own. Stuck inside a room with the world at our fingertips, we’ve never had so many inputs or so few (productive) outlets. That nagging inner voice that says “You should be doing more,” it doesn’t check for healthy exits before filling mental space.

These films explore the tick, tick, ticking that spurs us to action, and the ways that drive, absent an egress, can bend inward on itself. We follow two creatives turning 30 at the turn of the decade, who question the value of the art they create until the questioning melds with the creation.

When analyzing the year via the movies it produced, Bo Burnham: Inside almost feels like a cheat. A hybrid comedy special/performance art piece shot and set entirely in the pandemic, communicating “how it felt” is its overriding point. That it communicates it so deftly would, alone, merit inclusion on this list: Scroll through TikTok and find me any other work that so clearly struck a nerve. But what really sets the special apart for me is how well it speaks to the non-pandemic aspects. The character of Bo Burnham (and this is very much a character) lives in a world that is somehow post -irony and -sincerity. Overwhelmed by an amalgamation of contradictory inputs, the quickest way to express the truth is to present competing versions: the backlash to the backlash to the thing that’s just begun. He’s rendered impotent by excess, too clever not to undercut every attempt at honest sentiment, too consumed by anxious energy to resist attempting it regardless. He wants to make comedy, but comedy is inherently egocentric. He wants to verbalize the rot at the heart of Internet-era culture, but he is a shareholder in and influencer of that culture. A confessional style is masturbatory and a failure to confess is wrong; apathy’s a tragedy and boredom is a crime. And so he spirals ever deeper into his bespoke, relentless Everything, shedding casual bits of brilliance as he goes.

A film adaptation of a stage adaptation of Jonathan Larsen’s one man show, Tick, Tick…BOOM is a Jenga tower built with similar materials. Check the scoreboard: an artist whose birthday is cause for existential panic, a self-referential musical which details the author’s creative process, a deadly (and politicized) pandemic which makes that process feel limp and narcissistic, a generation numbed by an “empty image emanating out of a screen.” When he was 27, Bo’s grandpa fought in Vietnam; when Sondheim was 27, he debuted West Side Story. But while both artists use reflection to convey inner turmoil, they do so in remarkably different ways. Burnham’s hall of mirrors is solitary, downbeat, a dim-lit exorcism of irreconcilable things. Whereas Larsen’s is all bright augmentation, a joyous spiraling upwards. It’s a vocal chorus rising when every instinct says “Resolve!” Consider the standout sequence “Therapy,” one block of the tower at a time. Past-tense Jonathan is in a fight with his girlfriend over a song he hasn’t yet written about her, while present-tense Jonathan performs said song with a partner as her stand-in. The in-song couple wear withering smiles undercut by the insults they’re hurling, but through their facade of thinly-suppressed outrage gleams the performers’ delight at selling the bit.7 All of their layers are swaying in concert, flailing through contradictions. None of them will be untangled: Larsen’s litany of questions, his Post-It Note “Why”s, they remain unanswered after curtains close. It’s no matter: he’ll belt them out with the cadence of an exuberant conclusion.

8. Lowering Guardrails: Compartment No. 6 and Licorice Pizza

If shared space can be a catalyst for internal division, it can also be a venue for emotional release. Whether we wear each other down or we build each other up, proximity chips away at our instinctual defenses. When circumstance partitions us into tiny bubbles, who will be drawn closer and who will be repelled? It isn’t always clear on first inspection.

Impressions aren’t always what they seem. Two endearing films explored what we release through shared experience, the ways we soften to each other over time.

Compartment No. 6 is in no hurry to reveal its destination. The story of two young travelers who find each other on a trans-Siberian train, it’s bound to court comparisons to Richard Linklater. But in truth, their situation shares less with Delpy and Hawke than it does Steve Martin and John Candy. When Laura first meets Ljoha, he seems genuinely abrasive. He downs untold shots of vodka, trespasses over every personal boundary, and carries himself with an air of volatility and menace. Or, at least, that’s how he’s perceived by his companion. The magic of this film is just how nimbly it pulls the rug out from under you—despite also, overtly, calling its shot. I love the way it conveys the wistful openness of travel, that irrepressible desire to bare your soul to a stranger. Barreling through the Russian countryside in their sardine-packed enclosure, Laura and Ljoha slowly start to melt.

Regardless of The Discourse or the film’s ostensible plot, I don’t view Licorice Pizza as a romance. It doesn’t deal in lovelorn glances, revealing confessions, intimacies liable to linger. No, the image I’m left with is Alana Kane’s smirk: complicit in something she’s been told is beneath her, bemused in spite of her better judgement. The object of her bemusement is Gary Valentine, the brash-talking, 15-year-old huckster-in-training who has gotten them into yet another ridiculous bind. What draws me to this movie is similar to the draw of Bad Trip: it carries us along in its hijinks. It lets us roll with its mischief. As the pair schemes their way through a 1970s San Fernando Valley, we feel the zig-zag of affection and resentment, giddiness and disgust, that defines both young adulthood and mid-adolescence. The characters are far from perfect, and the script has a few truly baffling flaws.8 But beneath the discomfort and nostalgic set dressing is a story about the thrill of being seen.

7. Unmet Expectations: The Lost Daughter and Bergman Island

It’s the thought of what could have been that gets you. The hopes we’d outlined for our lives, the dreams that get deflated. Two years into this thing, I still struggle to reconcile my image of the future with the reality we’ve been handed.

So let’s travel to that wellspring of unmet expectations: a summer vacation. Two mothers head to an idyllic, coastal paradise, where they find themselves confronted by an imperfect present, and retreat into the path not chosen.

Or, in the case of Leda, a kaleidoscope of paths both chosen and not. The Lost Daughter is one of those beguiling viewing experiences best left unsullied, so I won’t reveal where those potential paths are headed. Instead, I’ll simply walk you through the premise. Leda is a middle-aged professor of comparative literature, visiting a beachside Italian town on a working holiday. Her attempts to relax are continually disrupted, either by her less-than-ideal accommodations (mold in the fruit bowl, cicadas in the bedroom) or, worse, by the uncontrollable behavior of other people. When a young mother and her screaming daughter set up camp on the beach beside her, something internal is jostled loose. What follows is a story about stifled dreams, difficult choices, and the degree to which disillusionment is held up as a virtue. The truism says we don’t always get what we want, but is that a moral imperative or a failure of imagination?

Bergman Island is a similarly slippery work of art. Chris and her partner Tony are independent filmmakers, spending an extended stay on Fårö as they noodle on their scripts. Their Baltic destination, as the title suggests, was immortalized by the films of Ingmar Bergman. Flocks of tourists gather there to idolize his work. But while Tony sees Bergman’s chilly genius as a virtue to be emulated, Chris interrogates the qualities that separate her from both acclaimed men. As the screenplay she writes begins to blur with reality, we’re given access to something, though we can’t quite put a finger on it. A life she longs for but is unable to have? A history which circumstance confined to a footnote? Or is it purely a work of fiction, her characters melding with the desires that inspired them? There are subtle answers to be found as the story progresses, but that reality is hardly the point. The point is the longing that evades intellectual probing, the beauty and risk of an unguarded nerve.

6. Shifting Convictions: The Green Knight and Judas and the Black Messiah

There’s a rallying effect that comes from having clearly-defined enemies: an election to win, an ethos to rebuke, the clarifying focus of a personified threat. The truth that comes after is considerably less exciting: betrayed ideals, disillusioned supporters, crowdsourced moral compasses as cover for inaction.

In a world that throws conventional wisdoms out like chaff, which should we follow? Where are we aiming? These stories are about internal moral reckonings: characters attempting to pen their own legacies while being pulled in competing directions.

The Green Knight is less a hero’s journey than it is a deconstruction of the concept. Gawain has yet to prove his valor, and so he’s set upon a quest. After lobbing off the titular villain’s head last Christmas, he now must travel to his victim’s lair to receive the same blow in kind. There’s no damsel to rescue, no romanticized end goal. Honor compels him, thus he will go. He’s a living reductio ad absurdum: a man hurtling towards his presumable death in pursuit of an amorphous concept. The story is amorphous and dreamlike in turn, questioning every detail. Is there a mythical King Arthur slaying thousands by hand, or a frail, fragile husk commanding fields full of corpses? Is chastity a virtue to be championed or an act of arrogance, withholding? If a knight is slain in a forest and there’s no witness to observe it, where do all his chivalric moral quandaries go?

Perhaps the most surprising element of Judas and the Black Messiah is the proportion of screen time devoted to Judas. The Messiah, Fred Hampton, knows exactly where he stands. Recognizing that the powers that be are morally corrupt, he commands a righteous opposition. That war is waged not just through language—though his speeches are electric—but via physical confrontation, if the moment demands it. There’s a gravitational force to everything he does; he pulls us into his orbit. Yet rather than have us view him directly, we watch him through the eyes of Bill O’Neal. Not quite a conman and not quite a disciple, Bill is a wellspring of contradictory impulses and self-justifications. He is, in no uncertain terms, a traitor to the Black Panthers: an FBI informant and a raging egomaniac who will say and do whatever serves him best. But he also feels genuinely emboldened by the movement he’s betraying, seems proud to identify with Fred Hampton’s words. He’s a shape-shifter, an enigma who ping-pongs between clear recognition that “the Law” is unjust, and a desire to wield it, to sanctify his selfishness by it. And in that sense, he is sadly familiar. If decades of status quo enforcement embellished by hope-and-change rhetoric have taught us anything, it’s that Hampton—not O’Neal—was the outlier.

5. Unforgivable Histories: Mass and The Card Counter

Some tragedies run too deep to resolve. Too enormous to express, too immediate to ignore, they defy every narrative convention.

In a year still heavy with incalculable loss, these films leverage spiritual imagery to probe at our collective conscience. What options are there after the unthinkable? How can we approach inconceivable suffering? And how can we reconcile our culpability in it?

Mass functions less as a parable than as a therapy session. Two sets of parents congregate in the basement of a parish. Their goal is, quite simply, to talk. The film doesn’t tell us what they’ve gathered to discuss, and I’d suggest you go in with a similarly blank slate. The beautiful paradox of Mass is that it manages to express something deeper than words, entirely through the medium of four people speaking. They share stories; they argue; they shed many, many tears. It’s difficult at some points to take. But there’s a profound empowerment in seeing it through, an impossible sense of uplift. To experience Mass is to bear witness to something essential, and utterly impervious to melodrama. It’s the human spirit revealing itself on a screen, commanding everything within it to find closure.

If Mass moves us by speaking the unspeakable, The Card Counter stirs us with silence. William Tell is a man of few words. The convict-turned-professional-gambler has so thoroughly narrowed the scope of his life that it feels like religious observance: He enters a casino, plays hours of poker, then returns to an empty hotel room, where, having covered every surface in muted grey sheets, he proceeds to write down his thoughts in a journal. What he’s dwelling on is, again, best discovered for yourself. But when he meets two other wanderers, he feels the hint of an offramp. In La Linda, the liaison for a group of financial backers, he sees an emotional substitute for confession. And in Cirk, his young protege, he sees a chance at redemption, of cultivating a better future than the one he’s been dealt. As he pours himself into both vessels of hope, we’re drawn deeper into his tormented psyche. It’s a hypnotic, slow motion shattering.

4. Clarifying Crises: Test Pattern and Întregalde

Calamity has a way of revealing certain truths: cracks in the armor, private or systemic. Our knee-jerk reactions give lie to our stated ideals; structures we’ve erected often buckle under pressure.

These films deal with clarifying crises, and the acute way they shift our perspectives—magnifying hidden emotional frailties, rendering social abstractions immediate and personal.

[CW: sexual assault]

Test Pattern is a damning social critique, and a remarkably effective one at that. Renesha is a self-possessed Black woman eager to climb the corporate ladder; Evan’s a mellow White tattoo artist who seems content to cheer her on. The film documents two days in the couple’s life: an evening when Renesha is assaulted by a stranger, and the morning after, as she and Evan try for hours to find a rape kit. It’s an excoriating portrait of the indignities we force survivors of assault to endure, the litany of bureaucratic roadblocks that seem designed to hinder hope. But the brilliance of the film also lies in its specific characterizations, in the interpersonal fissures their experience reveals. At first, Evan appears to be a paragon of supportive partnerhood: He tends to Renesha’s immediate needs, believes her story without question, and reiterates his commitment to protect her. He leaps into action in service to the woman whom he loves. But as his instinct towards action grows increasingly desperate, a troubling dynamic develops—one that tiptoes the line between support and ownership, between protection as loving impulse and as assertion of control. Through flashbacks that juxtapose their present day dynamic and their history as a couple, we are asked to recontextualize their relationship through the lenses of race, gender, and ultimately power. It’s a sobering (and brutally recognizable) portrayal, one that defies easy answers and didactic conclusions.

Întregalde pulls off a similar trick in reverse, hiding a damning portrait of society under the trappings of an intimate horror. We follow a group of Romanian aid workers as they drive through rural Transylvania, faithfully delivering goods to those in need. Naturally, they believe themselves to be fundamentally decent: They’ve chosen to volunteer when they could be doing otherwise, to devote their precious time to altruistic pursuits. But when a roadside hitchhiker gives them faulty directions, their lofty ideals start to crumble. They become lost and desperate; their relationships fray; the goal pivots from aid to survival. By nightfall, the very same people they’ve traveled to uplift appear to them as either obstacles or threats. Shrewd, unflinching, and perfectly calibrated, the thriller hooked me from beginning to end. In its closing few minutes, though, it became about something more transcendent: the aching reality of humanitarian crises, and how little they match our rose-tinted projections. We may genuinely care about doing “the right thing,” and we may even be willing to suffer for it—that is, if the suffering has predefined bounds, a controllable burn that feels righteous. But are we willing to embrace the daily tedium, the unpredictable discomforts and unrecognized sacrifices that meaningful, protracted change demands?

3. Personified Abstractions: Flee and Identifying Features

There’s a point at which the numbness kicks in. One thousand, ten thousand, a hundred thousand, eight. Some defense mechanism rallies to action, inventing new ways to quarantine anguish. We reduce it to a statistic, debate it as a trend, neutralize it as a foregone conclusion. Although it isn’t possible to internalize the enormity of suffering, it’s vital to stay tethered to reality.

Ebert famously referred to film as “a machine that generates empathy.” To me, it’s a machine that reverses that instinctual process of abstraction. At its best, film transports us into a state of mind where everything is personal and unerringly specific, lending experiential weight to intellectualized concepts. With narrative structures that submerge the viewer beneath objective description, these films refuse to be held at a distance.

Amin, the subject of the documentary Flee, has been given every reason to keep his story buried. An Afghan refugee now living in Denmark, there’s a certain precarity built into every moment—a fear that everything might crumble if he’s held up to the light. Which is what makes this such a courageous testimony and such a moving work of art. By use of animation (and a host of voice actors), Flee is able to mask incriminating details while bringing Amin’s childhood memories to life. Fluid, impressionistic, and subjective by design, it communicates emotional undercurrents mere depiction would obscure. Much of this is heartbreaking, though not always in the manner we’ve been primed to expect. We’re reminded that “refugee crisis” is a blanket term, covering countless complex individuals, and that suffering doesn’t operate on relative scales. No statistic could encompass Amin’s reality.

If Flee is a documentary that moves with the fluidity of fiction, Identifying Features is a work of ethereal fiction that hits with the weight of documentary. Magdalena’s son, Jesús, set off from home to cross the U.S. border. But in the intervening months, she has yet to hear a word. If the silence is deafening, the news that follows it is worse: The body of Jesús’ traveling companion has been positively identified. Like far too many real-world emigrants, he perished on the journey. No cause of death is given, nor is its absence noted: It’s as if this simply happened, like some stochastic social tax. Thus begins a somber quest, as Magdalena heads north in search of closure. What’s stunning about the experience is how little a window we are offered. She rides the bus in silence; she waits patiently in line; she leafs through photographs of bodies and possessions with methodical persistence. Rather than expressing grief outright, we are made to absorb it through osmosis: through wordless exchanges, sparse encounters, landscapes thrumming with negative space. One particularly stunning scene involves a second-hand memory, foggy and uncertain, as dreamlike as any drawn in Flee. But the details of this memory remain (intentionally) untranslated, narrated in an indigenous tongue Magdalena doesn’t speak. Absent the symbolic, the abstract finality of language, we can only connect by way of feeling. We receive, instead, precisely what we must.

2. Toxic Defenses: The Power of the Dog and The Killing of Two Lovers

Hurt people hurt people. While there’s truth to the sentiment, it isn’t a particularly helpful diagnosis: Everyone is a “hurt person,” at least to some degree. It’s the mechanism that I find more interesting to probe, both as a tool for understanding and a cautionary tale. There’s an innate response to hurt, an inner hardness we develop, that can fester into outward-facing anger: to dig in our heels amid intractable trauma and transmute it into vitriol, resentment, obsession. We’re currently watching it play out at scale.

Two tightly coiled dramas explored that nefarious redirection: the unpredictable threat of a defense that’s curdled.

Menace clings to every frame in The Power of the Dog. Befitting a Gothic Western set in 1920s Montana, some of that comes with the territory: stampeding animals, tumbleweed rot, death as a daily intrusion. But if the wilderness demands a certain jaggedness from everyone, Phil seems to particularly luxuriate in it. He’s a gaping wound with a dirty rag draped over it. He wants it to fester, and wants you to know it. When his brother’s wife Rose and her son come to live with him, he marks them as “soft” and sets on a mission to break them: caustic looks, half-uttered insults, a nearly invisible tightening of screws. Even if Rose could confide in her husband, what tangible proof could she offer? Phil’s contempt is so strong it needs no physical medium; he plucks at her flaws with virtuosic precision. You’ve seen enough movies (or read enough of that intro) to intuit where all this is going. Yet far from spoiling the experience, that intuition is just another instrument, one the film will play with similarly unnerving expertise. The Power of the Dog aims to make something inside of us curdle, to blur the lines between protection and violence. It compels us to recognize the rot from within.

The Power of the Dog reveals its characters’ torment methodically; The Killing of Two Lovers exposes it in the opening scene. We begin with the sound of David breathing, amid some industrial clatter. We then see his face, framed in claustrophobic aspect, before a cut reveals the still-sleeping couple by his side. One of them is Nikki, his wife and mother of his children. The other, as of now, remains a stranger. David’s looking down at them with such a childlike hurt, we feel a pang of pity…that is, until we see the pistol he’s aimed squarely at their heads. He won’t pull the trigger, at least not yet. But that uneasy juxtaposition—the boyish look in close-up, the loaded gun in wide—it permeates the rest of the film. Outwardly David seems like an affable guy, a father coping with separation as well as one might expect. He picks the kids up, on time and excited; he spends hours memorizing Hedberg riffs to quote back to his boys. When his eldest daughter expresses hatred for her mother, he responds with the conviction of a Very Special Episode: marriage is hard, Nikki’s a wonderful woman, everybody’s trying their best. And yet, there was the gun, and the innocent expression as he held it. For long stretches of the film we’re shown nothing of the weapon, but that whiff of boyish charm serves as a proximate threat. We stay lodged in that discrepancy like a bullet in the chamber, waiting for some inevitable release.

1. Present-Tense Memories: C’mon C’mon and Pig

Last year’s themes were phrased as lessons, with the final two intended as a couplet: “Find beauty in the motion blur; find meaning in the stillness.” Befitting the all-or-nothing nature of the start of the pandemic, I viewed these as separate directives, a progression of sorts. Grieve the memory of a past-tense togetherness, then find solace in our solitary present.

These films argue that, through quiet intentionally, we can achieve both at once. They insist that to fully be alive is to embrace some continual collision: blur and focus, grief and celebration, blank-slate openness and world-worn wisdom. To cast every present moment in the glow of reminiscence, and to remember past detail with the immediacy of experience.

A man and a boy are walking together through a black-and-white, bustling Manhattan. Johnny is weary and pensive, probably in his late 40’s; his fidgeting nephew Jesse is 9. Jesse’s never been to The City before, and he’s wired on cacophony and sugar: head bobbing, limbs squirming, eyes strained in an effort to see everywhere at once. He’s a human antenna, donning headphones designed for a head twice his size and waving a big, fluffy microphone. Johnny’s patiently suggesting recording techniques, but Jesse’s way too excited to listen. They’ll capture it together, somehow. C’mon C’mon is a movie that documents life as we live it, and I realize that makes it sound cheesy. That’s okay. Whether you’re a jittery nine-year-old brimming with questions or an adult too exhausted for answers, a great deal of your life is certain to be cheesy—and forgotten. How many late night epiphanies can you still recall? What’s the half life of a fit of unexplained laughter—the kind that hit without warning and slowly devolved into dumb, incommunicable tears? Their mic is storing this to tape, but would it matter if it weren’t? It’s the intention to preserve that renders the feeling immortal. “I’ll remind you of everything.”

That line could easily have been uttered by Robin, the monklike protagonist of Pig. Having emerged from the forest after years of self-imposed seclusion, the chef functions as a conscious well of memory. It isn’t just that he remembers on behalf of other people (though he recalls every meal he’s cooked and every patron whom he’s served). It’s that his very demeanor—unflinching directness, uncanny attunement, ability to coax out the senses in others—it acts as a catalyst. Robin encourages; he conjures; he makes space for remembrance. A mystical meditation on the power of presence, Pig tells us that to fully experience a moment is to commune with its history. Every sense memory is a security deposit box, an underground truffle, a bottled vintage nestled under layers of dust: tiny, hidden Horcruxes, fragments of ourselves, containers of a prior present waiting to be uncorked. The best meal of your life. A film that makes you cry. A now-empty restaurant whose clattering once covered a thousand whispered intimacies. By staying open to the immediate, we become historians and time travelers: present in memory, transparent in hurt, connected to others, clarified to ourselves, unburdened, unwavering, unexpectant, unguarded, unhurried, relaxed, resilient, and found.

Closing Bits, Shameless Plugs

Hi there! If you made it this far, there’s a good chance you’ll enjoy some of my other writing. You can dig through previous years’ write-ups, or find a bunch of individual film reviews. On a personal note, I undertook a hundred days of journaling towards the beginning of the pandemic. You can find that and other miscellaneous writings scattered throughout this site.

Given the still-mostly-virtual year, almost every film I listed is available to watch at home today. Linking to each felt like a nightmare for future readers, as these are certain to change month to month. But as of January 31, 2022:

  • The Power of the Dog, The Lost Daughter, Bo Burnham: Inside, Tick Tick Boom, and Bad Trip are available on Netflix
  • Pig, The Killing of Two Lovers, Test Pattern, Bergman Island, and The Humans are available on Hulu
  • Judas and the Black Messiah and The Fallout are available on HBO Max
  • Slalom is available with an Amazon Prime subscription
  • C’mon C’mon, Flee, Identifying Features, Mass, The Card Counter, The Green Knight, Spencer, and Language Lessons are available for rent or purchase on most platforms.
  • Only Întregalde, Licorice Pizza, and Compartment No. 6 remain unavailable.

This marks my eighth consecutive year of film recaps, which is solely a labor of love. I am fortunate enough to need no financial support, and would reject any if offered. But there is one form of support I’m willing to grovel for: If you read and enjoyed this, I would love to hear from you! These things always get some level of traffic, but a faceless graph on my Google Analytics dash is a poor substitute for human connection. You can hit me up on Twitter, connect with me on Letterboxd, or just send a friendly email to stephen __at__ cs.stanford.edu.


  1. Zola, Titane, The Last Duel, The French Dispatch, Spencer, House of Gucci, C’mon C’mon, Ghostbusters: Afterlife (for reasons unclear even to me), Licorice Pizza (in 70mm, at the height of omicron, solely for the sake of this list).

  2. Off the top of my head: Red Rocket, West Side Story, Spiderman: No Way Home, Drive My Car, Memoria, Parallel Mothers, Nightmare Alley, The Souvenir Part II

  3. With the exception of the animated documentary Flee, I restricted this to narrative fiction as a matter of convenience. That alone left a handful of fantastic films on the cutting room floor: most notably Summer Of Soul, but also Homeroom and The Rescue. Some excellent, caveat-free favorites simply felt wrong to pair with others, or were otherwise lost in the shuffle. These include Petite Maman, Saloum, and (most glaringly) Titane. Others reflect the strange nature of hindsight: I fell hard for CODA at its Sundance premiere, but had lost all enthusiasm by New Years. Still others speak to the hazy nature of release schedules and awards qualifications. For instance, The Father and Minari were both 2021 contenders by my selfish criteria (festivals count if I attended, don’t if I didn’t), but they are so tied to the 2020 Conversation™ it felt awkward to include them. Whereas Judas and the Black Messiah, despite being in the same early awards conversation, screened at Sundance 2021 and thus felt natural to include. None of this is rational or fair: Go see them.

  4. Though I always like to say that pairing isn’t a science, it does involve an awful lot of formulas and a Big Ass Google Spreadsheet. (If you don’t care about process, please bail from this footnote now!) I started with roughly 30 candidates worthy of inclusion, as well as my Spoiler Warning list to keep me honest. I then jotted down potential pairings (about 50 in total), till every candidate had multiple points of entry. With the help of some truly sweaty formulas and conditional formatting rules, I was able to nominate and stack rank certain pairings, getting yelled at if a favorite was neglected or if any film was double-counted. Eventually, I landed on something that felt right. Broadly speaking, the higher the ranking the more I liked (some weighted combination of) the movies, and my favorite of each pair is typically listed first. For comparison, my top 5 on the podcast were C’mon C’mon, Pig, The Power of the Dog, Flee, and Test Pattern. In conclusion: If you squint real hard, it sorta looks like a science?

  5. For that, I suggest Lauren Hadaway’s The Novice.

  6. Nothing to see here, Mom!

  7. The performers’ delight, as well as the thrill of the real-world actors who play them. Which is a surprisingly deceptive layer: The scene feels so kinetic, it’s easy to forget that we’re only watching a reenactment of performance. Every time, it still floods me with the adrenaline, the rooting-for-them energy, of a live high-wire act.

  8. Those John Michael Higgins scenes completely sucked the oxygen out of the movie: They’re unnecessary, unfunny, and undeniably offensive. That particular controversy I can co-sign.

Best Films of 2020: Living Room Lessons

More ramblings: Check out my six previous end-of-year lists to get a sense of my taste in movies.

Podcast: You can listen to my flat Top 10 list on The Spoiler Warning.

Introduction

I’ve looked at this from every angle, and I’m finally going to call it: There is absolutely no way to start a 2020 recap without some hackneyed platitude. So screw it, let’s play the hits. Communal: “Well, we made it!” Understated: “It’s been a weird one.” Conflicted: “It was simultaneously the least and most memorable year of my life.” Contemplative: “We were never more isolated, yet somehow never more connected.” Glib: “It was the worst of times, it was the worst of times.”

The truth is that even unprecedented events trigger predictable responses. Digging through my own year end writeups, I see a few recurring trends:

Here’s a hot take for you: 2016 was a rough year.

2017 was a year of complicated emotions. But if there was one universal mood which overwhelmed all others, it was this: a feeling of outrage—a desire to do something—with nowhere of value to funnel it.

I won’t speak for anyone else, but I felt drained by 2018…But as the headlines kept coming, my anger felt impotent; my sadness turned hoarse and performative. What was I supposed to do with all that heaviness?

I was angry, often, in 2019—glued to a screen when I should have been sleeping, seething with hypothetical arguments and blistering rebuttals. I was also extraordinarily happy in 2019, both in the Instagrammable sense and the more important, lived-in variety. I learned, somehow, to be both more and less certain of things. Or maybe it was to never pit one type of certainty against another, deeper type; to find more stable footing amid the not-knowing.

Still, predictable epiphanies are no less impactful. 2020 cut through the artifice and took them all out for a spin. Abstract moral quandaries become intimately personal. Political divides were somehow more searingly pronounced. Impotent outrage, performative sadness, hypothetical arguments in search of an outlet? Pack a lifetime of pressures into a few hundred square feet, stand back and wait for the blast.

Living in a city, our connectedness struck me as a blessing and a curse. I have never been so acutely aware of just how many people occupy my 10 block radius. My specific postal worker, the grocer on the corner, the cashier at the Burmese spot that feeds me once or twice a week. The skateboarders who transform my evening walk into a game of Biowarfare Frogger. The packed MUNI bus I’d once sprint across the street to catch, from which I now sprint across the street to actively avoid. The fiancé (née “girlfriend”) who has been my constant, sole companion. If I were an island, I’d have been entirely safe from harm…until keeling over from malnutrition around the third week of March. I am thankful that I am not, and will never be, an island.

I haven’t seen a single film which was conceived in the pandemic, yet I’m incapable of viewing cinema through any other lens. Of the 93 new releases I caught this year, 86 were in my living room, including all but one entry on this list.1 That context is impossible to ignore; it permeated everything. Virtual TIFF premieres became private celebrations. Purely visual spectacles were rendered hollow, insufficient. My phone became a constant, irrational distraction, and only a rare work of art could keep my anxieties at bay. As with every other aspect of my life, subtext was promptly upgraded to text: Now more than ever, I required a steady drip of pathos. Luckily, there was plenty of the good stuff.

So today I’m embracing my lack of nuance and counting down 10 thematic pairs2—reflecting 10 lessons that needed reiterating in this memorable, unmemorable, connected, isolated, predictably unprecedented year:

10: Cultivate curiosity: The Vast Of Night and Soul
9: Hope beyond reason: Time and I Carry You With Me
8: Own the inevitable: Babyteeth and Dick Johnson Is Dead
7: Define your opposition: One Night In Miami and The Forty-Year-Old Version
6: Recognize oppressive structures: The Assistant and Mangrove
5: Break calcified routines: Palm Springs and Another Round
4: Rely on one another: First Cow and Never Rarely Sometimes Always
3: Depend without demanding: Shithouse and I’m Thinking Of Ending Things
2: Find beauty in the motion blur: Lovers Rock and Bloody Nose, Empty Pockets
1: Find meaning in the stillness: Sound of Metal and Nomadland

10. Cultivate curiosity: The Vast Of Night and Soul

My shelter-in-place period began with a slew of cancelled flights3, and the weeks that followed carried a genuine sense of loss. So much of my identity had been defined by superficial newness: new destinations, new career achievements, new experiences to add to my collection. In a world with fixed surroundings, what was left for me to be?

It took a little over a month for me to leave my apartment. When I finally did, I felt like I’d landed on an alien planet—spacesuit very much included. My daily commute had fostered the delusion that I knew my city deeply, but when I deviated from the tramlines it was clear I’d barely scratched the surface. There were parks I’d never seen before, thoroughfares I’d never walked, entire neighborhoods I couldn’t have named if they were circled on a map. Every new run became a personal expedition: What was beyond that hill up there? How did those two spots connect? What if you turned left instead of right? Being awestruck by beauty was a near-daily occurrence, and I’m not just talking about wildlife or panoramic views. An intersection at dusk could be a jaw-dropping revelation. A new angle of approach could feel unspeakably profound.

The Vast Of Night is an ode to that pervasive sense of wonder; the truth that tiny revelations could be hiding in plain sight. Even—especially—in those places where nothing seems to happen. A cloistered, quiet town with a gee-aw-shucks aesthetic. An evening radio program without a soul who’s calling in. A house that hasn’t seen a visitor in ages; a woman sitting there in silence, waiting for you to speak. With age we might grow numb to it, but in youth we knew the stakes. Curiosity is a muscle and it takes will to exercise it. Many will spend a lifetime looking forward, none the wiser. But ask the right question, tune to the right frequency, lift your eyes skyward, and you just might catch a glimpse.

Incuriosity doesn’t always look like passivity; sometimes it looks like striving. Soul’s Joe Gardner isn’t lacking in motivation. Far from it. He knows what he wants, knows how to get it, and even knows how to make it transcendent: those moments on a piano bench when the world swirls to the periphery. His problem isn’t a failure to aim higher; it’s limiting the scope of his gaze. If being “swept up in the music” is the sole jurisdiction the stage, or “discovery” restricted to a distant, dim-lit runway, then it’s a fragile source of meaning, prone to wild fluctuations. His joy will always be beholden to his striving. A good steward of wonder ought to keep their portfolio diverse. Luckily, there is no shortage of options.

9. Hope beyond reason: Time and I Carry You With Me

Pragmatism and optimism are useful contradictions. I certainly felt extremes of each depending on the day. Hope without a center could cavern into recklessness. Reason without levity could harden to despair. “It’s no big deal.” “It will last forever.” “It doesn’t matter.” “It’s all that matters.”

Growing up in the church, there’s a phrase I’d hear recycled: “Live like it depends on you, pray like it depends on God.” It’s broad enough to mean just about anything, and has been abused enough to prove it. But it speaks to a very real tension, one which this year proved overwhelming. I’m talking about the struggle to do our due diligence without crumbling under pressure; to retain an optimistic spirit without losing our sense of ground. The need for a hope which doesn’t undermine reason, but rather augments it, lifts it up.

When we meet Sibil Fox Richardson in Time, she has reason to be discouraged. Her husband is serving a potentially life sentence for a confessed (nonviolent) crime. Despite a mountain of legal fees and failed appeals, things have shown little sign of changing. When her children were born, Rob was behind bars; when they graduated high school, he was still behind bars. She acknowledges her situation, and works to rise above it: working multiple jobs, taking public speaking gigs, partnering with criminal justice advocacy groups. But pragmatism alone can’t withstand 21 years of separation. It’s her love that keeps the family together, and hope that keeps them moving forward: phone calls, visits, filmed Big Moments, even a life-sized cardboard cutout. Her hope for her husband’s freedom is far more than some empty coping mechanism. It’s a vital attribute on which his freedom will depend.

I Carry You With Me is also about a hope that insists upon itself, regardless of the roadblock. Iván and Gerardo fall in love despite families who won’t accept them. Hope then propels them to seek opportunity in a place that won’t receive them. And when the city threatens to crush them—when poverty is more than they can stand—hope encourages them to continue pressing on. Despite decades defined by forced separations between lover and lover, then father and son, they carve out a piece of the American dream…one that is endlessly threatened by the country that brands it. Still, they endure. They demand a better life. And they bridge all borders in the process: hometown and home, acquaintance and family, documentary and fiction.

8. Own the inevitable: Babyteeth and Dick Johnson Is Dead

It was a year tailor-made for my personal anxieties. For the asthmatic, a deadly airborne virus with a hefty side of wildfire. For the hypochondriac, an imperative to self-diagnose based on the haziest of symptoms. For the neurotic overthinker prone to stress-induced panic: a closure of gyms, a reliance on takeout, weeks glued to a couch under a stockpile of whisky.

Prevention has its limits, even in a good year. You can only avoid stressors up to a point—one which “global pandemic” handily clears. The real trick of living with anxiety is learning to steer into the skid. You recognize the wave of dread washing over you, and choose to ride in its direction rather than feel trapped under its weight. The outcome may be similar, but you flow through it differently.

When confronted with trauma, most characters in Babyteeth run in the opposite direction. Milla’s father (a psychiatrist) keeps his feelings bottled up, and keeps his wife’s suspended in a dull prescription haze. Moses hides his loss behind a veil of liberation: he is free to do whatever he wishes, provided it destroys him. Free to run at breakneck speeds towards an oncoming train; free to break into Milla’s parents’ house (but not his family home). Only Milla, 16 years old and facing terminal cancer, seems willing to look the monster in the eye. Like American Honey’s rowdy van crew, swerving towards salvation, her methods may seem ill-advised, immature, or careless. But she’s closer to the truth than all the adults who try to numb it out.

Kirsten Johnson doesn’t want to flee from it. In the title alone, she puts her cards on the table: Dick Johnson Is Dead. The eponymous Dick is losing his memory, and one day he will die. There’s no fixing it or slowing it; there’s no equivalent vaccine. The best the father/daughter duo can do is serve as creative consultants. And so, Dick begins play-acting his inevitable future, even as the spectre of it creeps into his present. He’s knocked out by a wooden plank; he tumbles down the stairs; a window AC unit falls directly on his head. He attends his own funeral, bawls through the eulogy, and dances with his departed wife in a bedazzled, cotton candy heaven. It may sound depressing, but it genuinely is not: By fictionalizing his own mortality, he’s somehow made it lovely. There are tragic possibilities beyond any of our control. Still, with a buoyancy of spirit and bit of trick photography, we can make the choice to elevate the narrative.

7. Define your opposition: One Night In Miami and The Forty-Year-Old Version

“Who are you, really?” It was a question that haunted us on multiple levels. Individual: What gets you out of bed in the morning? Communal: What lengths will you go to protect your neighbor? Societal: Which definition of hope do you choose to believe in, and whom will you trample to get it?

Amid these existential questions came the murder of George Floyd, and all of the above lines were blurred beyond distinction. Frantic corporate lip service rang as treacly and insufficient; law-and-order finger wagging revealed as evil and obtuse. There was overwhelming anger and no tidy place to hide it, no checkbox on a paper ballot, no symbolic resolution. It left no room for people-pleasing, waffling, “moderation”—those staples of white liberalism by which nothing seems to change. The stuff that change is made of was right outside the window, marching in the city square, demanding a response. Who are you? Oh, really? So what exactly will you do?

To the four main interlocutors of One Night In Miami, the answer’s not as obvious as it appears on first inspection. In broad strokes, of course, they all agree: the goal is to combat a racist system. But the devil is in the details. To Cassius Clay, the answer lies in rising above the system: excellence and fearless self-identification. To Jim Brown and Sam Cooke, it’s about cleverly exploiting the system from within: slowly amassing power and inspiring others to do the same, till eventually it tips toward an equitable direction. If that maneuver demands a sacrifice, surely the ends justify the means? But to Malcolm X, no nudge can salvage a country that’s rotten to the core: The only way to fix it is to burn the system down. A half century later, as history tragically reverberates, it’s hard to shake the prescience of his words.

Radha Blank is living in that “half century later”, and her dilemma in The Forty-Year-Old Version is eerily similar to Cooke’s. Overt racism may have been traded in for smiling condescension, but the resulting power structures are more or less the same. In order to succeed as a playwright, she finds herself beholden to white sensibilities: white producers with a hunger for “poverty porn,” white directors on the marquee because “all the others were taken,” white audiences who pay to be “challenged” precisely to a Hamilton-sized point. She’s a flesh and blood artist in a feel-good PR world, one that claims to crave diversity while dictating the contours it must take. And so she finds herself trapped between two competing types of silence. How can authenticity inspire if it means toiling in obscurity? Then again, what’s the value of a platform if it’s in someone else’s voice? With no good option offered to her, she creates one of her own.

6. Recognize oppressive structures: The Assistant and Mangrove

Not all problems can be solved on an individual level. Systems are slow to change and reject attempts to self-critique. Politicians insist that everything is fine till the moment it behooves them to stop. Market forces surge to protect market interests; officers incite violence to secure their own necessity. And while Malcolm X would surely argue that “recognition” is insufficient, it’s a bare minimum that’s still depressingly difficult to clear. It’s tough to fight collective battles when the villain can’t be named.

The Assistant’s nameless villain is easy to recognize—the real life man he’s sketched from as well as his cookie-cutter imitations. But while Jane’s boss is surely a monster, he’s not presented as the film’s primary threat. The true source of horror comes from the people in her orbit: the monochromatic pack of yes-men who excuse him, insulate him, turn a blind eye with a smirk. While he remains lurking in the background, they are brought starkly into focus. It’s the coworkers who dictate her servile apology while looming just behind her; the dead-eyed HR rep who wields “listening” like a weapon; the conference room attendee who gives a look that makes simple pleasures feel like stealing. As we follow Jane through a single, hellish workday, we don’t need to hear the abuser directly to understand how he exists. If we tune to different frequencies, we can make it out clearly: the hum of abuse in the system’s design.

If a collective pact of silence can prop up an abusive system, a collective shout might have a fighting chance at knocking it down. The police who raid The Mangrove are powerful and shameless: they topple tables, smash bottles, and accost its patrons with impunity. And in August 1970, after a long string of abuses, the Afro-Caribbean community of Notting Hill chooses to fight back. They march. They riot. They are arrested and detained by forces which show no interest in their testimony. But through a grueling courtroom battle, they stand united in their witness. They refuse to fold under pressure; they insist on naming the monster. And though a half century later we still hear the echo of abuses, we also hear the voices of those who dared to call it out: bold, unwavering, defiant.

5. Break calcified routines: Palm Springs and Another Round

Among the many vices this year put under a microscope, perhaps the most fickle was complacency.

I call it fickle because it’s a chameleon of an issue, and one which we Type A personalities are apt to misdiagnose. In the early days of quarantine, I mistook it for a lack of productivity—weekend Netflix benders, quadruple-snoozed alarms. And so, true to form, I overcompensated wildly. I would write every morning, run every evening, and fill every waking gap with devotion to my work. With healthier habits and an aggressive creative output, surely I could turn the ship around!

Except it turns out a default state of “output” is no less numbing than the others. Autopilot inevitably finds a way of creeping in: postponed conversations, friendships left untended, cultivated stressors based on unexamined rationale. I must do X, or else…what, exactly? The answer hardly matters. Given enough time, the routine justifies its own existence.

The temptation to revert into habit was hardly new to 2020. But devoid of any prime mover outside the confines of my living room, the absurdity of that struggle felt even more pronounced.

“Absurdity” is the operative word for the protagonists of Palm Springs. Caught in a loop at a destination wedding, they’ve found themselves on the inside of a Camus hypothetical. Social niceties dissolve; distractions prove impermanent; all goal-oriented striving seems meaningless from the jump. They’ve come at it from a thousand angles, and still the stone is rolling. What’s the point in trying to shake things loose? Maybe there’s really nothing left to do but lay back in a pool floatie (with a dozen Akuparas) and let life just happen to them, ad nauseam absurdum. Or is there a reason to push back against their daily, mundane comforts? “Less mundane,” Nyles considers, “That’s a super low bar. That’s a great place to start.”

The characters in Another Round are also seeking an escape from the mundane, though their problem isn’t repetition so much an anhedonic rut. Students who don’t give a damn; rote and loveless marriages. That gnawing sense that life has nothing new to offer. And so they do what you or I might when facing a mid-life crisis: They pour themselves a drink. Except they aren’t using alcohol to numb the world, as most films would depict it. No, they’re drinking with the intent of more fully experiencing the world; taking a sledgehammer to their inhibitions to see what’s on the other side. What follows is a sort of guerilla academic study…or at least that’s the excuse. Some of their discoveries are absolutely hilarious. Others are extraordinarily depressing. Even an unchecked hunt for novelty can become its own calcified routine. But there’s a profane wisdom at the heart of their ill-advised experiment, and a vicarious thrill in watching the demolition.

4. Rely on one another: First Cow and Never Rarely Sometimes Always

When the world is suddenly held at an impossible remove, the people in your orbit become more vital than ever. It’s true in the relational sense—I cannot fathom surviving the last 9+ months without a loving partner to keep me grounded. But it’s also true more broadly, encompassing the friends and family you chat with on Zoom, the neighbor who waves in the hallway, the local cooks who keep you fed regardless of the holiday. We are all irrevocably connected. 2020 was a year of being humbled, of learning to negotiate those connections. Of needing to rely on one another and be made reliable in kind.

The untamed West of First Cow puts little stock in personal connection. In a time and place defined by dogmatic individualism—boundless expansion, the elusive promise of gold—you are only deemed as “valuable” as the service you provide. When they meet, King-Lu and Cookie have found themselves victims of that cold calculus, and they hope (like so many) to eventually tip the scales. But while their story functions neatly as an economic parable, its real beating heart lies in subtler exchanges. It’s the unassuming manner in which Cookie sweeps the floor; the way King-Lu voices an idea as if he could see it in the distance. It’s about the spirit of friendship, impervious to circumstance, which can transform the harshest raw materials into something like a home. Two people, side by side, keeping warm.

When I think about the characters in Never Rarely Sometimes Always—bundled up in jackets, half sleeping on the train—I’m reminded of that haunting bookend image. It’s a long way from 19th century Oregon to present New York City, but the same cruel calculation remains an all-consuming force. We still accommodate or discard based on a reductive sense of value. Autumn, the film’s protagonist, is among the too-easily discarded. 17 years old, pregnant, and more or less broke, she’s perpetually been treated like a nuisance. And she seems to have internalized that message—prone to lengthy bouts of silence, turning inward as an instinct. So in those moments when a bureaucratic hurdle would threaten her resolve, it’s her older cousin Skylar who needs to keep her pressing onward. Which isn’t to imply that Skylar’s particularly happy to be needed. What moves me about their friendship is that it isn’t sentimental. Skylar isn’t a shoulder to cry on or a comforting distraction. Rather, she’s an advocate, insisting on Autumn’s agency even to the point of annoyance. She can’t dictate Autumn’s choice, but she can nudge her towards some clarifying questions—and to a room where she’ll be granted space to answer.

3. Depend without demanding: Shithouse and I’m Thinking Of Ending Things

Any relationship worth preserving calls for symmetry and restraint. In a year when our connectedness proved immeasurably vital, it also proved a frequent (sometimes deadly) source of strain. Marriages crumbled; disinformation ran unchecked; peer pressure drove behavior to the point of reckless abandon. No one is an island. And yet, some parts need to stand alone.

I grappled with this on a personal level. My “level-headed” instinct led to inwardness, opacity; my desire to be the hero made me a walking ball of stress. I have never been so thoroughly stuck inside my skull. At the same time, I’ve never felt a greater temptation to crowdsource my anxieties: to heap my burdens onto friends and strangers in the name of vulnerability, or better, to lose myself entirely in a sea of communal cynicism. It’s a delicate balance. Wall off too completely and we become governed by neuroses; rely on others too aggressively and we lose our sense of self. How do we split the difference?

Maggie thinks the point of college is to discover who you are. Alex adds a corollary: it’s to support each other in the process. That tension between independence and codependence, personal identity and group identification, is the emotional crux of Shithouse. It also happens to be the emotional crux of growing up. After 18 years of life primarily steered by someone else, you suddenly find yourself miles from home, alone behind the wheel. What do you do? Move too far in either direction and it loops back on itself. Camp up in your dorm room, walled off from the universe, and you’ll postpone any chance at self-discovery. Push your social life to the breaking point with an endless string of parties, and you’ll never feel more thoroughly alone. Meet someone who sharpens you, engage in “life-changing” conversation, and in the glow of wine and streetlamps you’ll catch a glimpse of who you are. Irreparably blow it the following morning as want curdles to obsession, and you’ll get a clearer picture of the mess that’s left to fix. A girl is not a savior; a crowd is not a family; loneliness is not a badge of philosophic rigor. Through a lifetime of trying and failing and wildly overcompensating, a real self will come into view. Even still, you’ll always look back fondly on those nights of aimless searching. On that time when all of “you” hung in the balance.

Want curdles to obsession. There’s little I can say about I’m Thinking Of Ending Things without spoiling the experience, but that hard truth Alex learns is at its root. We are so desperate to be loved, recognized, included—and desperation can grow toxic, regardless of intent. A chilly echo chamber, an infinite regress. Whether seeking validation in a high paying career or a top shelf degree, a stirring creative project or a scorched earth criticism. Whether marching in support of some bloated sense of “Great”-ness, or sneering from the sidelines, lobbing dry, ironic stones. “Whether you have a wife or just a wife-shaped loneliness waiting for you.” We need other people—real ones—to keep that need from caving in on itself; to challenge us, defy our basest expectations. Alex and Maggie’s theories are both right, in a sense. A healthy independence requires some network of support: external voices reiterating our authentic selves to us.

2. Find beauty in the motion blur: Lovers Rock and Bloody Nose, Empty Pockets

“I miss the world.” It’s a phrase that I couldn’t shake this year, and it tinted every movie. There were always two stories: the thing unfolding on the screen, and the fact of its creation. Behind every plot machination or emotional journey hid a broader human narrative about shared, collective space. A shimmering Manhattan skyline became a vehicle for nostalgia. An establishing shot of a bustling café became a revelation in itself—this was something we used to do together. A handshake became a Chekhov’s gun; a sneeze an all-out nightmare. Airplanes seemed fantastical, apocalyptic wastelands too familiar, and extravagant action set pieces turned vicarious and meta: “They took a camera crew where and blew up what?!”

You grow so accustomed to motion it’s easy to forget there’s any other setting. In February of 2020, I might have complained about a thousand things which I now see as distant, lovely memories. A jam-packed bus on a rainy morning commute with neighbor sardined against neighbor. A gaggle of club-goers screaming on my block every Thursday through Saturday evening. How you sometimes had to wait a goddamn hour to get a table at Mikkeller. How even then you’d have to shout to get a word in.

Lovers Rock might be the purest expression of precisely what I miss. It’s an act of surrender, of intentional forgetting. People gathering in a crowded room from all possible stations, setting down their burdens to simply be alive, together. A voice melding into a choir. A bass you could feel in your chest. An outside world which doesn’t fade out entirely—Babylon sirens blending into the upstroke. It’s that feeling of letting go, of having permission to abandon, of forfeiting the need to make any conscious choice. It’s the dinner that balloons into four hours of stories, the joke that isn’t funny which leaves everyone in tears, the audience shouting lyrics till they can barely hear the band. It’s the stuff that never fits inside the confines of a Zoom call, no matter how creative our attempt. It’s the magic of kinetic energy: bodies packed into a tiny space, unscheduled, sharing heat.

To the barflies who populate Bloody Nose, Empty Pockets, motion blur is more than a temporary reprieve. It’s the fundamental texture of living. You’ve met them, I’m sure—the guy who slurs through his last three marriages on an endless flight delay, the woman who roars with gravely laughter before you’ve even hit the punchline. But have you ever really seen them? Beyond the faux philosophic discussions and liver defying habits, lies an all-too-human yearning to unburden. An eagerness to be made vulnerable, to know and be made known, to thoroughly dissolve into a crowd. Like the characters in Another Round, they elicit an empathy that runs deeper than any judgment. Perched behind the counter for their Roaring last hurrah, it’s easy to get swept up in the afterglow.

1. Find meaning in the stillness: Sound of Metal and Nomadland

We lost that sense of motion. And it’s appropriate to grieve it as a loss, charges of “first world problem” (however accurate) be damned. Even now, almost a full year into this thing, I struggle to find a substitute for that overcrowded, sweaty bus. I wake up and run to the rhythm of a chipmunk-speed novel; I fall asleep to the white noise of political analyses and improv. I have somehow found a way to make Solitaire a speed race. I fill my life with all manner of pre-programmed distraction, yet it’s impossible to mistake them for the real, organic thing. I miss having an unpredictable world to get lost in.

In grieving it, though, I’ve learned a truth about myself: the degree to which I couldn’t stand the stillness. It wasn’t as if I were merely bored in those first few weeks of March; I was restless, craving some primal release. I was addicted to the bustle, to the myth of forward motion. Like the daily second espresso I’m sipping as I write this, it had always seemed a harmless, manageable vice. But when the machine went on the fritz, I became a wreck.

When grappling with panic attacks in my mid-to-late 20’s, I occasionally dabbled in meditation. I say “dabbled” because, in truth, I never got further than the third or fourth “breathe out.” Lying flat on my back with my eyes screwed shut, focusing on nothing but existing—it felt like being held underwater, or staring directly at the sun. Every biological system rebelled: distract, distract, distract.

Could there be a more fitting complement to this year than Sound of Metal? Over the course of a single day, Ruben loses virtually everything that defines him: the vintage record player, the whir of his blender, the thrill of live performance, the whisper of “goodnight.” He’s lost his hearing, yes, but more importantly he’s lost the noise. If his former life as an addict was defined by a singular want, noise offered him the promise of plurality. A divided attention, a translucent swath of “focus,” a sludge of stimuli dense enough to dampen any urge. Dissolved into the chaos of a Friday night set, Ruben could be everywhere and nowhere. Now he can only be here: a place where stillness is the default, and listening a clear and conscious choice. All system rebel on that first early morning, alone with his coffee and his donut and his thoughts. But slowly he weans himself off of the chatter. He grieves his old life and learns to carve out a new one, discovering new gifts in its absence.

By the time we meet Fern on the road in Nomadland, she has already lost one life and fashioned herself a new one. Though in a literal sense, her story is flipped: Fern grieves the loss of stillness via therapeutic motion. With the death of her husband and the closure of her workplace, she no longer sees any reason to stay anchored. So she drives, and drives, and drives. Living in a van and working seasonal gigs, she is tethered to nowhere and no one. But what she’s seeking in an open road is the same as Ruben in his kitchen. Absolute solitude. A sufficiency of being. The ability to survive without the bustle. As she weaves from job to job through the American Midwest, it’s not always clear exactly where she’s headed. Some nights it seems like she’s fleeing from something; some nights it seems like she’s found it. There’s no perfect way to meditate, no ideal way to grieve. But in the experience of watching her, there’s no mistaking the directive: an urge to turn down the volume, soak in the landscape, embrace our private wilderness and be.

It’s been almost a full year since I cut the world cold turkey, and I still can’t say I’ve really kicked the habit. I’m still loathe to walk a room’s length without headphones; I still get stuck in manic fits of scrolling. But I’ve picked up a few tricks that I’d like to carry with me, in that (reasonably hopeful) future when the spinning will resume. Like this one: waking before sunrise, pulling the morning’s first espresso, taking in the skyline and standing absolutely still.

Closing Bits, Shameless Plugs

Hi there! If you made it this far, there’s a good chance you’ll enjoy some of my other writing. You can dig through previous years’ writeups, or find a bunch of individual film and book reviews. On a personal note, I undertook a hundred days of journaling towards the beginning of shelter-in-place. You can find that and other miscellaneous writings scattered throughout this site.

This marks my seventh consecutive year of film writeups, which is solely a labor of love. I am fortunate enough to need no financial support, and would reject any if offered. But there is one form of support I’m willing to grovel for: If you read and enjoyed this, I would love to hear from you! These things always get some level of traffic, but a faceless graph on my Google Analytics dash is a poor substitute for human connection. You can hit me up on Twitter, connect with me on Letterboxd, or just send a friendly email to stephen __at__ cs.stanford.edu.


  1. The Assistant, caught a full month before quarantine.

  2. If you’ve read any of my prior lists, you probably know the drill. While 20 films are listed here, and order is important, this is not meant to be taken as a straightforward Top 20. Some films were elevated by virtue of sharing a theme; some which I otherwise loved were excluded from the list. (A few casualties worth your attention: Blow the Man Down, Boys State, Da 5 Bloods, David Byrne’s American Utopia, The Invisible Man, Love and Monsters, Ma Rainey’s Black Bottom, Mank, On the Rocks, Saint Frances). What it is, is a collection of thematic pairs ordered by how much the pairing moved me. My favorite films of the year are generally among the highest rated pairs, with the first film listed (A of “A and B”) typically my favorite of the two—though a few of these are virtual ties, including the number one slot. For a more traditional, flat list which will surely contradict this one, you can check out the podcast.

  3. Mostly a handful of business trips (including one that very morning). More heartbreakingly, what would have been my third trip to the Cannes Film Festival—complete with a kickass AirBnB and an actual, no-more-begging-on-the-street-for-tickets press badge. Le sigh.

Review: Shithouse

Shithouse

Mine wasn’t a stuffed animal or turtle. It was a street.

I remember when it hit me. It was my Freshman year at Berkeley, and I was making the trek to San Francisco for a concert. This was the sort of evening I’d spent the whole summer fantasizing about: concerts and comedy clubs every Thursday and Friday; Haight/Ashbury Saturdays with Brautigan in my hand; Sundays in Golden Gate surrounded by friends. I imagined The City™ would be a near-daily companion. I hadn’t imagined this: My very first outing, 2 months into the semester, entirely alone.

That isn’t to say that I didn’t know anyone. I shared a two bedroom suite with three other roommates: gregarious guys, popular and athletic, for whom I imagined high school functioned as a sort of college with training wheels. Fake IDs, the apocryphal “hookup”, out-of-town parents and backyards with pools. They seemingly arrived at orientation fully formed: aware of every protocol and rule of engagement, making friends, hitting up parties before I’d even unpacked. And while they were too cool not to recognize a deer in the headlights, they were kind enough to treat me like I wasn’t what I was.

But it wasn’t “real friendship” as I’d known it back home in San Diego—the kind only kids and sitcom characters seem to seriously maintain. Near-daily hangouts, endless heart-to-hearts, 10+ years of accumulated inside jokes. Being a part of The Group had been effortless, default. It didn’t require scheduling; it didn’t have to be a choice. Now, sitting by myself on a bus heading westward, my life could only be the product of conscious decisions. I was here because I’d decided I would go and see a concert. I was alone because I hadn’t asked anyone to join. And if I stayed out all night—hell, if I stayed out all weekend—no one would be reaching out with serious concern. Why would they? I was, per fantasy, entirely free. Free to be or not be anyone. Free to be or not be loved.

I didn’t really see the street, I only saw its name—an inch or two left of my location on the SFMTA map. California 1. The Pacific Coast Highway. It jut up through the Sunset into a wide stretch of green; that park that I’d spent zero of my Sundays in “surrounded.” But what moved me was the part of it the map didn’t show. An Encinitas record store The Group had treated as our Mecca. The fire pits in Oceanside where we’d jam on our guitars. A Del Taco where a $5 allowance could buy a bowl-cutted 6th grader a veritable feast. 500 miles of contiguous asphalt, separating me from a life where I’d been cared for by default. It was the strangest combination; maybe my first true “happy-sad.” Comfort in the knowledge we were physically connected. Pathetic as I realized what a cold comfort it was. Embarrassed that a street name could bring me a hair away from tears. Proud that even my sadness was the product of a life that I had chosen.

It’s 13 years later and I’m sitting in my apartment, just a few blocks from where I sat on that bus. Much to the chagrin of my 18-year-old self, I never did find a “Group” to replace the old one. What I have, instead, are a handful of contexts: a beautiful fiancé still dozing in the bedroom, coworkers still recovering from a week’s worth of my puns, old roommates and classmates I’ll chat with once or twice a year, the friend who moved up here from Oceanside, with whom I still cohost a podcast. We’ve got 5 movies to cover this weekend, and I’m squeezing in the first one before I head out for a run. (The movie is called SHITHOUSE, and while I’m not expecting much from it, it’ll wind up moving me to tears—excavating certain memories, recalling certain nights. How big everything used to feel, and meaningful, and lonely. Forgotten conversations, revelatory at the time. California asphalt lit by moonlight and street lamps. How you don’t really “get over” it so much as adapt to it, grow through it.) I’ll drive out to my starting point, or I’ll walk there if it’s nice out. Then I’ll jog along my favorite route, the one I try to take most weekends: up through the Sunset into a wide stretch of green, giving head nods to some hundred strangers who’ve made the same conscious choice to move. Alone, surrounded, and home.

You can listen to our review in Episode 633 of The Spoiler Warning Podcast